Motion - new pathways - air -sea -land -us

@tonys I'm doing good. Still a bunch of things I need to achieve today, even though it's late in the piece, but i think I'll get there. I hope. I have to go on a big drive and it's getting dark but it'll be ok.

Love your mad skills when it comes to getting your share of delicious yabbies!

@LeChuck O k mate. drive carefully. Trees have legs and are nomadic by night.

Best wishes . . tonys mb 1

Hi @Former-Member you write you feel a little like in a different space to others here....I think many feel that way at times. I understand this and think it's hard when tones or conversations change here but the respect and love is still there...you belong....

I know I sometimes sorry about safety here or if I overshared.....too much detail or info or maybe someone will feel burdened ...and I don't want that.

It's scary writing sometimes when I hope people will be kind and hear me..you did a lot for me by being so gentle and intuitive when discussing my medication....you hold yourself well , you communicate care to people which means so much to us, I think.

I had my appointment today, wow it is indeed draining as you said, to push myself to show up and work through things.

My dr cares a lot and tried. I feel he has a deep desire to help me . He told me he is going to try do everything he can to help me and I don't need to fear that I will get angry or express myself and he'll stop trying. He's going to do all ye can to help. I wander what that means, I guess. I feel it's a commitment to walk with me. Motion, again. Transport. To be on a journey with someone.

Thank you for watching over us here I am less alone because of all of you good people.

@Former-Member Hi there fella. Rock the boat please. thats why I enlisted on your tub. If I want Tupperware talk I watch the brady bunch. I won't give you the omelette and broken eggs line.

Singed hair, explosions, sheds ripped apart, and altered states between Jeckal and Hide, Thats the price I had to pay in the evolutionary process, the long road to the districts ... best moonshine. !

That is the cost of great ideas and discoveries. NASSA wants it, they aint getting it

A little revolution is a good thing now and then.

@StanD The above, In triplicate on your desk to. There's a sale on at Aldi philosophers . . 2 bucks a kilo, But . . Real leaders are in short supply.

and if we were perfect people, would we be , here. Don't ever loose your way.

tonys moon base one

@EternalFlower Staunch, steadfast, and true. . . tonys mb 1

Thanks @tonys I don't know how, but you pop up when I really need you.

I believe you & your moonshine.

Nearly about to lie down feeling dreamy & deep sense of calm. A new terror emerges. Unexpected. I can't run. I let it have it's turn. The images we see when there is no one around us. I want big arms around me. Holding me, protecting me & saying those monsters will never find me again. It's only me here now.

I don't want to write too much more about it here.

Your hug is holding me from afar friend. Good. Love.

Hi @Former-Member I'm so sorry. I was involved in my own discomfort, I discounted you.

I am surprised to read how you are feeling.. My ignorance. The directions you gave me, it was one of the most special treasures anyone has ever taken the time to do for me. You gave me a gift, big & love. My ignorance assumed you were a person who is capable, confident, not needing others in the same way I feel embarrassed to know that I do. Why doi think that? To much hurt. Made me feel weak for needing others.

It is very late - I'm having hard time with words.

I want to say, my insecurities can make me gravitate to one person. They can end up being bad for me. If I have one person I can feel ok, it's hard feeling small.

It's who I am. One person is all I can really allow.

What I NEED is one good person.

They can have there own issues & problems. Above all, they are a good person.

I know they are good because I feel safe. No exceptions.

If you ever need one person @Former-Member , before feeling safe and ready to have more people. I am here.

Hi @tonys I'm reading your message again now. A gift of courage - in courage meant🦁

When does this battle end. I have all this pain in my chest. Inaction. Writing has given me an idea now. I can call a person who offered for me to call them back.

I wanted to write - share my experiences with others - it could help another who gets this tightness too, to know at least I'm not alone. Breath.

The impact others have on us. Miraculous. And small miracles too often overlooked. Appreciate any good, anothers presence blessings. The oncoming driver who waves in the narrow road. The pedestrian waves as I let them pass. The overworked Asian bakery lady, standing by ovens on a 40 degree day. Her tone may be neutral. She cares, & is loved too. The delivery man, with parcels & food. Smiles, have a good day. The overseas telemarketer, a kindness or humour behind their life as a piece of sh*t, undervalued, employee.

And then the people that make me feel like I'm feeling now. Disturbed, alone, yelling is merely a noise. Or as @EternalFlower discovered, it made a person finally listen.

Confusing. Do I yell? Demand? It doesn't work. What the heck do they want from me... These aliens? Nothing - they want nothing at all, they.....

Ending post here. Dramatic thing just happened.

Please God don't let him back in.

Please @tonys @Former-Member @EternalFlower @LeChuck TYME @tyme @Appleblossom @ ALL of you.. anyone is the universe who exists now or EVER existed - if you are on my side - I need ALL of you right now. Please ask your Gods DONT EVER LET HIM BACK. PLEASE.

Hang in there @StanD , you are not alone and you can get through this. Keep reaching out and talking, and be kind to yourself

I'm being the kindest I've ever been to myself @LeChuck

Thankyou for your quick reply & letting me know I'm not alone. I believe you.

@tonys I know you support me. Keep Going Friend. You Are Doing Amazing.