Just sad

Put it this way... life has taught me a lot @ArraDreaming .

I hated my life. I lived to die @ArraDreaming - it was such a miserable existence.

But I'm soooo glad things have turned around. I'm in such a good place now - a place I never thought I'd be able to come back to.

It's been such a hard, tough journey. I've hurt many people emotionally and physically. I'm not proud of things I've done, but I've learnt from them. They are not things I would repeat.

But whatever has happened, I've learnt my lesson/s so it's been totally worth it.

Whatever happens @ArraDreaming , is for a reason. We may not understand it at that time, but eventually, the reason will become apparent.

Thanks @tyme
You are totally right and I agree
there are so many days and weeks the both of us though we shouldn’t and couldn’t get through but we did, we have survived 100% of our toughest days yet.
I like to think I’m in a pretty good place now too compared to even 2 years ago but in saying that 2 years ago I was pretty unwell yet thought I was in an ok place, so even though I genuinely feel great maybe the best is still yet to come which is exciting,
Even 5 years ago I didn’t know I would be sitting here married to an absolute gem with 2 kids and about to start a new job and really happy inside too, if someone had told me that in 2017 I would have laughed at them

If someone had told me even 10, 15 years ago when I was a kid that I was going to be happy and enjoy life I wouldn’t have believed them (probably because so Many people told me I wouldn’t be)

I remember when I was about 15 @tyme I got arrested and I was very close to doing time, and I have actually never really told anyone that and I remember someone saying that things would get better and I was like but when?? it’s already been this bad for so long I don’t think it will. and that seemed so far away now I’m here @tyme

So true! We don't realise how FAR we have come until we look back to where we have been @ArraDreaming - that's when we can truly say, "Yes, I've progressed"

I always ways, it's about progress, not perfection....

Yeah for sure @tyme

It’s been great chatting and you’ve helped keep me company while all my family sleeps and I lay here sickly little thing but I think I’m going to make myself some dry toast and head to bed now too @tyme

I hope we don’t have a night like last night although kids seemed to have turned a corner I seem to be getting worse

You have surely come so far @ArraDreaming - I'm am so happy to hear your story. Thank you for trusting me with your story.

I really just makes me think about my upbringing. I was the black sheep. The one that would never get anywhere. I was the no hoper. When MH hit me, I felt what they said was right. However, moving on, I think I've surprised them in many ways. The never even thought I'd do anything with my life.

Looking back, I'm just very different to my siblings. Always a slow bloomer. Slower at everything....but I tend to get their eventually.

If only more people saw you now, they'd eat their words!

Yes, @ArraDreaming - thank you for the chat.

I hope you feel better soon. I'll catch up with you tomorrow 🙂

Please rest up.

Hugs