Not Coping

It’s really hard to feel like we deserve love I’m not sure what to say because I don’t feel it for myself either I’m sorry @creative_writer.

I love bliss balls they are so good if you can make them yourself full of Whole Foods that is what would hit to spot @tyme.

Hugs @Captain24 ❤

Hello @Birdofparadise8 , @creative_writer , @tyme

Been very itchy, not sleeping well because of the itchiness

Have tried soo many different creams but they just make it worse

So I have not put any cream on today just a cold washer to see if that helps

We only had a 1 hour job today

And then we went and vacuum and washed my MIL floors

Came home for lunch and Mr shaz slept all afternoon

Can you believe it --- Mr shaz's mum lives nearby and she sent his birthday card by mail , he is soo upset

TW: Death

I'm just thinking ahead.

Without sounding unsympathetic, I wondering if you've thought about planning for the inevitable.

In the past, when I've had people pass away, I get very upset when I see them in hospital, but I believe I self-talk and tell myself that if it is 'the time', it will happen, and not to fight it because it won't bring them back?

I'm not sure if I'm making sense.

Then, after that, I'm so caught up with the funeral arrangements such as making the funeral booklet, finding photos for the slideshow, talking to people... that I don't have much time to grieve. Even during the wake, people will come and give their condolences, but it is not until after all of this that reality sets in...

I believe this is when one needs most support. To help them through the grieving process. I guess even having supports such as GS or Griefline will be handy.

Hope I'm making sense @Captain24

@Birdofparadise8 , @creative_writer , @Captain24 , @tyme

I have proteinurea because of my kidney disease soo I have to cut down on protein

Awww @Shaz51 . Feeling for Mr Shaz, however, has he enquired into the reason why the card was posted? Was she ill? Was she away? (*Sorry, I don't know the context).

If it makes any difference, my parents don't even know my birthday!!! I didn't have a birth certificate until I was about 9 when it was needed for me to get a passport to go overseas....

Then one birthday, my sister type 'Happy birthday' in a family chat. My mother then typed back, "Whose birthday is it?"

Aww that sucks I hate when family can be bothers to show up or call when they live close by. My gran on my dads side just text me to see how I am with my surgery. Compared to my mums side who called me and came around. I definitely can feel what Mr Shaz is feeling I’m sorry.

Maybe you could take an antihistamine that might help with the itchiness.

What is MIL floor @Shaz51?

I know it’s so hard I’m sorry I don’t really know what to say @creative_writer. it is hard to accept love from others when we can’t love ourselves. I know I don’t love myself either.