Not Coping

That's okay @ArraDreaming

@Birdofparadise8 okay princess, what's going on?

I'm doing better. As you know I retreat when things get too much. I was hoping participating in the Sane forums would help me from internalising but it hasn't. I'm so used to never having anyone listen to me and being the one who listens all the time it's hard to break the habit of retreating. I'm trying though.

Anyway what's going on sweetie, I've read a few of your posts, what's causing your upset?

Thinking of you 🫂 💙👸👑💐

Hi @ENKELI

I'm so pleased to hear from you.

Yeah, I do know that. I do hope you know I'm here for you, and you can message me whenever, and I'll respond just like you're being here for me now.

I really have no clue. My psych and I talked about what happened here over the weekend, my friend, and a couple of other things. He mentioned how depression is from the repression of emotions, but I was then going to say that I've been really struggling a lot more the past week and feel like I'm spiralling, but he said okay, I'll see you need a week, and I could feel the sense of being dismissed, and then I said okay thanks and walked out and started crying. I went across the road to the library, sat there, and sobbed for a bit. I wanted to go back over and tell him how upset I was at him, but I wasn't sure that would be good. I feel like I was in so much emotional pain, like when I've been rejected. It was awful. I don't know why he couldn't tell something wasn't right. I guess I just made it look like I was okay until I could get out. It would have been odd if I had said something once we had finished.

Anyway, I'm back home and not feeling good at all.

Is anyone around?

Email to Psych

Would this be okay?

Hi (Name),

I wanted to follow up on our latest session.

I know we did talk about (Name), (Name), depression and repression. I mentioned how things have been worse over the past week, which I feel you thought was a result of me repressing my feelings. However, I have been feeling quite overwhelmed the past week and am starting to spiral. Which I may not have made clear, so I am sorry about that.

Right before you said, “I'll see you next week” (or something like that), I started to feel very overwhelmed, as if you were being dismissive to the extent of how intense things have been, making it all about repression. While I do understand this to a degree, it seems like you are making repression the forefront of my depression. I do understand we were at the end of the session, but internally, I felt very distressed, realising I felt dismissed and like I was going to cry, so I left and then started crying.

I ran over to the library, where there were bathrooms, so I could cry. I considered coming back over since I didn't speak up in the moment about how I felt, however, I didn't think it was appropriate, so I stayed there sobbing for a bit and eventually went home. This is because when I felt overwhelmed, and then when I left and realised how I felt, it happened very quickly, which isn't your fault.

This is important so that you can understand how I feel and how our interactions impact me. I value our session and the work we are doing, so I hope we can address this when I see you next week.

I hope you don’t mind me emailing you. Sometimes, it is easier to write things down, and then you can think about what I’ve said before we meet.

Kind regards,

(Name)

Hey @Birdofparadise8 ,

If he's open to you communicating through email, then go for it.

It's not rude at all @tyme?

Hey @Birdofparadise8 ,

I think that's hard for me to comment because I don't know your psych and I don't know what style of communication is prefers. For some people, they don't mind emails like yours, while for others, they may find it quite confronting.

Do you think it would be considered as rude to him?

Well, I have spent over an hour and a half writing it, and I've apologised for things I did @tyme

Why would someone find it confronting?