Not Coping

@Blackbird11 thank you for your words, it means so much to hear that. I always have my Godson in my prayers, his mother and sister not so much.

@Birdofparadise8 I've decided I am going to contact my Godson because of the 3 of them he is the one who will reach out. I'm going to get someone else to write on the envelope though because I know that bitch of a mother will throw it out so he never sees it.

I had savings accounts for both kids that they were to get when they turned 21 but cancelled them. I have decided I will re-open the account for my Godson and let him know.

My Goddaughter is beyond redemption, after I spent over $2000 on her so she could go on her school camp to NSW she never thanked me and before I moved back home she told me to f*** off, and that living with me was like walking on eggshells all the time. Her mother stood by and did nothing.

By the time I left I had paid her private school fees, camp fees, pocket money, $120 Vans that she had to have and then never wore.

My Godson I also paid for but he thanked me. While he was away at camp he was allowed to call his parents and he asked to speak to me instead of his mum. I have little notes and things he used to write to me in a box of treasures.

Thanks again both of you, it has meant the world to me to have been able to let this all out in a safe environment and without the backlash I'd received IRL

Hugs and sleep well, you both deserve the best x

You deserve the best too @ENKELI

Your kind heart and character shine ✨️

Hugs and rest well x

Ah okay, that makes sense @Eve7

I'm sorry @ENKELI

Can I ask why were you paying so much for them? Was there mother not financially able to look after them or something?

Do you work everyday @Eve7

Hey, @Blackbird11, what are you up to?

Hey, @Birdofparadise8

I'm doing ok, how are you?

I've just started studying, there's a bit to do in the last assessment task for this unit.

That's good to hear.

I had my first online class for the semester, so that was good.

There is free food on campus, so I'll go see what is there.

I'll come back to do some more studying and then read my book.

I also have a session with my KHL regular so that will be good. I do want Friday to come because I'll see my psych. I missed my appointment last week because of COVID-19.

Were you ever bullied growing up @Blackbird11?

Did you see the post about my bullying yesterday it's a bit long. You don't have to read it if you don't want to.

Free food sounds good @Birdofparadise8 good you're are able to get out. Your appointments are going to be good for you. I was bullied growing up, it has a lasting negative impact.

I'll take a look at your post.

Yeah, it was alright. I got the beef ragu, but there wasn't much beef in it.

Can I ask what happened? Was it like how I was bullied at school or in a different form?

@Blackbird11

That's awful @Birdofparadise8 it would leave some deep scars. Are you unpacking this with your supports? It's truly awful what you've been through, but you're a survivor and you are strong and can heal from this.

Thank you @Blackbird11

It wasn't a fun time, that's for sure.

Yes, I have spoken about little bits and pieces with him a couple of times, and then two weeks ago, we did talk more about it. I hope we can go into more detail this week. He said that it was like my memories were all over the place, and once I started thinking about something, it would remind me of something else. He said it's like they are mushed together and not in order, and we can work on getting them in order and not be as painful. I'm really unsure how talking about that would even work.

What's your opinion?