Not Coping

Hi @tyme

How are you?

Can we have a chat if you're free?

Is anyone around 😩🙁

For another half hour or so @Birdofparadise8 - can sit with you for a bit till I hop off 💜

Thanks @Jynx

Things aren't good.

My mood stabiliser has increased, and now I take one in the morning.

What do you think of me catastrophising over my aunt and uncle?

@Jynx

My psych said he would speak to some colleagues to see what else he could do to help me. He had another look over a cognitive assignment I had a couple of years ago and how it never mentioned I would have a block with my emotions.

I'll try and explain it the best I can.

So we would talk about how I feel and bring it back to something and say it's about how I treat myself and I know it's not nice but then how does it make you feel in the moment which I don't know. So he said maybe it's not the best approach as its like in blocked from it. He said people would say they are angry or sad because it where I can't name anything. I don't feel anything.

@Birdofparadise8 can take time to adjust to new meds for sure. I hope it balances out soon 🤞

I think that it's natural for someone who has had unsafe relationships in the past to be suspicious and assume the worst in the present. Anxiety is just our brain trying to protect us from potential harm, it just that it works on animal instinct and kinda sucks at its job sometimes. What's important is learning to recognise catastrophising as it starts up, and to learn to take a step back, pause, and look for other reasons as to why the triggering event may have occurred before assuming the worst. And also, along the way, to not be too hard on ourselves for the ways our anxiety impacts our behaviours. It's okay to be annoyed at yourself, but maybe also could help to have some compassion for that part of you that just wanted to protect you?

Me and compassion, can you imagine that @Jynx

I can't.

It will start tomorrow with the increase. I just hope I'll start to feel better. No wonder having the meds not at a therapeutic level wouldn't help.

I did recognise it when my aunt said they hadn't spoken about it.

Could also be helpful to look into alexithymia @Birdofparadise8 - I think I have it, it's where one has difficulty identifying and expressing their emotions. I also shared this earlier with Bow - my illustration of my mood meter. It's modelled off those fire danger signs, you know where they move the little pointer across depending on how extreme the chance of a bushfire is?

(I also noted that I regret using the word 'regular folks' cos there's no such thing as 'normal' and everyone has different experiences that are all valid)

So like my emotional threshold is weird, I can be experiencing stressful stuff and it's all fine, then I cross a certain point and my emotions go 0-100 real quick, and suddenly I'm crying and sobbing and can't calm down for a good while. Does this resonate with you too?

Hopefully you and your psych can find a good pathway forward to help you better understand your emotions and how you can learn to regulate and sit with them so they don't have such a hold on you.

I'll say goodnight to you now hun! Catch you next time 😊💜

I guess I could say I do relate in a way, but I also can cry a little, feel alright and then start crying again. Sometimes, it can be extreme; like last night, I was all over the place.

I think it's more than I can't express how I feel when I'm with my psych as there is nothing there when we talk about my painful experience.

Thanks have a good night @Jynx

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