Not Coping

Okay, all good. I'm going to read my book now anyway.

Will you be around tomorrow at all? @ENKELI

Enjoy whatever you're having for dinner.

@Birdofparadise8 enjoy your book.

I made mince chow mein, quick and easy. My brother was late home from work so I decided against the roast - we'd be eating at 10pm had I done that!

I should be around tomorrow, I plan on cooking a few meals and baking some muffins so I'm not going far.

Hope you sleep well x

That sounds yummy @ENKELI

What type of muffins?

Hey,

Anyone around?

Not feeling that great. I've seen my psych today, and I'm waiting to hear about my medication from my GP at 4:45 I wish it would hurry up.

My psych said he would speak to some colleagues to see what else he could do to help me. He had another look over a cognitive assignment I had a couple of years ago and how it never mentioned I would have a block with my emotions.

I'll try to explain it as best I can.

So we would talk about how I feel and bring it back to something and say it's about how I treat myself, and I know it's not nice, but then how does it make you feel in the moment, which I don't know. So he said maybe it's not the best approach as it's like I blocked from it. He said people would say they are angry or sad because it is where I can't name anything. I don't feel anything. I want to Google about it, but I'm not sure what all this would even be called.

We also talked about my uncle and aunt and how I try to make an effort in their lives, but they don't do the same by asking me similar questions.

We talked about last night and how hard it was. I was crying on and off from about 4 to 11 pm.

He couldn't belive that my meds weren't at the right dose so no wonder why things have been so much harder.

Hey there @Birdofparadise8

I'm here! I'm sorry that it's been difficult for you but I'm really proud of you for speaking with your psych.

Have you heard back from your GP yet? 🙂

Hi @amber22

She will call at around 4:45.

Last night was bad.

Not too long to go now @Birdofparadise8

Oh no, I'm sorry last night was hard, how are you feeling this afternoon? A bit better than last night?

I really don't know. I feel nothing at the moment, just empty. @amber22

I'm reading my book, and I've got a couple of pages left. It's really good. It's called Paradise by J A LOW.

How are you?

Meds been increased

What is wrong with me? I texted my uncle a couple of hours ago and asked if we could catch up. I haven't received a response yet. Anyway I have a group chat with him and my aunt to let them know my meds have been increased.

Anyway then my aunt asked on the group chat if I wanted to catch up. I immediately thought that my uncle told my aunt what I asked him and then she offered instead. I asked her if he told her and she said no.

Like why did I have to think that.

I thought he didn't want to see me and so he asked my aunt. Ahh I'm so annoyed at myself.