Not Coping

Hi @ENKELI

Yes, I did, but it hasn't been good since coming home.

Hot here as well.

It's nearly dinner time @Birdofparadise8 and did you check the risotto yet?

Well, I'm not going anywhere in a hurry so stay connected and we can continue to work through this together. Have you tagged any of your friends on the Forums today? What have you done in the past that might work now to change your thought pattern?

What does the guy do for a living or is he a student too?

RiverSeal 🙂

I'm eating now @RiverSeal

Yes, I have not many respondents.

Challenging thoughts are even harder.

He is trying to get into civil construction but being an international student it costs a lot.

@Birdofparadise8 not good sweetie, what's up?

I really don't know @ENKELI

I feel like I'm falling apart.

My mood stabiliser medication is below the therapeutic range, so that could be a contributing factor. My GP will call on Wednesday to see what my Pdoc told her.

I also asked her because she is very pregnet when she is finishing up and how long she will be gone for. She finishes at the end of the month and will be on leave for a year. I was upset about that yesterday.

Challenging your thoughts is hard and it can really work too @Birdofparadise8 . What about CBT have you tried using that at all? I'm a big fan of CBT and it really help me change my thought pattern over a long period of time. I don't have training to teach people but have a lot of lived experience and was taught by a registrar psychiatrist.

Where is the guy from? Does he have an accent that you like?

RiverSeal

Now you're back home with your thoughts you are feeling bad again. Like @RiverSeal suggested, have you looked into CBT? I agree, it can be really helpful and I found it worked too.

How did you psych appt go?

I'm not sure if my current psych and I have been working on it.

I thought I should process the bullying first, but who knows @RiverSeal

He is from india.

Yeah, I am @ENKELI

I don't know.

It was interesting. We have not talked since Thursday, which is when the session was.

Sorry i don't really want to type it out again I'll find a post from it I've mentioned it here on thursday.

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@Birdofparadise8 wrote:

@Jynx

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@Birdofparadise8 wrote:

Hi @amber22

I told him about me suicidal thoughts. We talked about a few things I had on my list, but we talked about how it’s hard for me to put my shield down and feel how I’m feel with him there. I just don’t know how to let the control go. I said to him I don’t know how to do it and he said that I have to do it on my own as I can put it on and off. So looks like I’ll just have to try and work on it somehow.
I also mentioned about what he told me a while ago with how he said that having suicidal thoughts gets in the way of things. He said thank you that I told him as it could have either been miscommunicated or I misunderstood what he said.
He also said he will write a letter to my GP to help get an increase in my mood stabiliser.
so I was really please he offered that.
we talked about how I don’t accept validation from him or KHL with me laughing it off. We talked a bit about the bullying and also how I have a sense of emptiness when I’m disconnected from my body.
I talked about how I was disappointed with my friend only coming around for like 30 min.

maybe some other things but I can’t remember.

im not feeling great now though.

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@ENKELI @RiverSeal