Not Coping

Yeah, but I probably won't worry about it. I don't want to bother her.

Yeah, but for it to lead to suppression, it is probably not the best hey @RiverSeal

I'm having risotto if it's still okay. I cooked it the other day.

I don't think I would like that I can't handle the heat.

I'm sure you won't be bothering her @Birdofparadise8, reach out if you want to and it might be good to speak with her today.

It can be beneficial to talk about things rather than suppress how you are feeling. Did you know there's a new journalling app from Apple in iPhones? I think you use an iPhone from memory, right? I haven't used it yet, but I had a look and it's pretty good!

I am a big believer in reflection, and I have spent the past few days reflecting on a situation and I have nailed the best cause of action and it's pretty amazing. It's a skill and once you learn to practice it can be really powerful. What do you think about reflecting on your feeling and thoughts from today tomorrow maybe?

RiverSeal

There's not a lot to reflect on @RiverSeal

I'm just sad, and I don't want to be, and then I think of how much of a bad, worthless person I am.

Can't really change any of that. This negativity is deep inside of me.

To be honest, I haven't used the one you told me about. I just write it down in my journal before a psych session, and sometimes, when I have a chat with KHL we go through some things.

I just don't want to start crying if I start to think about what's going on with me. Like, what do I have to be sad about? Nothing at all, yet I'm a wreck.

Did I tell you about the guy I met on Wednesday?

Oh yes, I have an iPhone.

Feeling like you a bad person and feeling worthless are just thoughts and feelings, not reality. We tend to focus on what we see as our bad qualities or the worst things we have done or said. Feelings of worthlessness are really hard to sit with, but we can turn that around with dedication and action. I used to feel like this, and I volunteered when I wasn't working and allowed myself to see the good and valuable qualities of myself. Have you considered anything like that, volunteering @Birdofparadise8? Fun fact is when I started working again, I only had referees from volunteering because I had burnt my employment referrals through my MH experiences before I stopped working.

No, you haven't told me about how your date at the cafe went but I'd love to hear if you want to share? I only have horror stories from my recent dating experiences but still hopeful.

RiverSeal

Yeah, I'm going to do some volunteering with older people @RiverSeal

Sure, so we just had a cold drink and iced chocolate, and he paid, so that was nice. then we talked for a while, walked back to mine, and had a hot drink. Then he left. He seemed nice. He texted me when he got home that I was beautiful and that he couldn't get flowers because of the car trouble.

He seems nice so far. I am not sure when we will see each other, but it would be nice.

That's so lovely @Birdofparadise8! I'm so pleased it sounds like it went well, and he sounds so cute. 😊 Have you thought about texting him today and maybe telling him about your day in the gardens with the girls? Glad it's not like my stories!

Great that you are volunteering with older people and when does that start? I was going to do some volunteering with older people over the phone, but it didn't work out.

RiverSeal

Yeah, I'll talk to him at some stage.

I haven't heard when it will start yet @RiverSeal

What is your story if you want to share it?

Ok sounds good and be sure to tell me about it when you start if you'd like to @Birdofparadise8.

So, I went out with a girl I met online, and dinner and the conversations were great, but I just wasn't into them. I got really dressed up and felt so confident, but it was clear it was over before we got our food. They wanted to go afterwards, and I was actually happy because my friends were out, and I was planning to go join them. They messaged they got home but I didn't read it until a couple of days later and replied and thanked them for a nice night. And that was that!!

The chilli has worn off now btw but I enjoy it while it lasted!

How are you feeling now we have been chatting a while?

RiverSeal

I'm sorry. How was it a disaster other than you knew it wouldn't work before the food @RiverSeal

You said the conversation was good.

I thought you would say that they hurt or blew you off. Sorry.

Um, alright, until I thought about how I feel. Now I'm crying. I feel so empty.

@Birdofparadise8 hey there!

It's still warm here and uncomfortable. Hope you had a good time today, the Botanical gardens are beautiful.