I can’t cope

It’s hit and miss @Jynx. I got the notification for this post but not your last one.

I just can’t see anything. The hopelessness and worthlessness is so so deep. I don't know how much longer I can do it for.

What if I said my CM has actually done that!!

This is the most stupidest time to try and quit smoking.

I might have a shower.

@Captain24 haha kudos to your CM! How did that land for you?

Oof yeah withdrawals would be rough. Do you have patches or gum or anything to help?

Here, a reminder:

I'll be off for the night soon, so I will send you a HUGE pile of cuddles now. However, the cuddles won't reach you all at once - they're staggered, and will hit you one at a time over the next few days, like little bursts of warmth.

She is pretty awesome @Jynx. I broke down on her one day and she just held me.

I’ve been on tablets and I’ve slowly cut back. I currently don’t have any in my house.

Have a good night. Thanks for the hugs.

Im really sorry

No sorry needed @Captain24 not in the slightest.

Nighty night, and here's an extra cuddle for you - in puppy/kitten form this time hehe. May you find some peace this evening 💜

The days are filled with dark.
The nights are filled with dark.

The days have a need for sleep

The nights, sleep evades.
Looking for the tunnel with the guiding light

All that is seen, is the dark hole which, within, has no end

I have a major headache. I’m tired, my body is aching, my throat is so sore. All this and I still can’t sleep.

I know I’m just rambling but it’s keeping me occupied and safe. While ever I’m on my phone I can’t be doing anything else.

Hi @Captain24 ...am concerned for you. That things seem so black and hopeless to you and you're feeling so worthless 😢

Also wondering if you're getting sick? (The sore throat and aching that you mentioned)

I know you're on night shift now for the next 3 nights. Are you still on light duties?

Sending wishes and care 💙

Sorry @NatureLover. I’m so self-absorbed.

Im sorry you are struggling.. Is there anything that may help? Are you nearly ready for your inspection?

I just tested for Covid and I’m disappointed as it was negative. Story of my life.. negative! 😜 I think it’s something I’ve done to myself.

Yeah. I start my 3 nights tonight. At least the first half of the night is at public holiday rates! Still on light duties but I did drive for longer yesterday, almost a full shift, but I’m really sore today so I think it was too much.

You're not self-absorbed, you're just struggling to survive @Captain24 .

I've been too upset to work on the house for my inspection...thanks for remembering it. But I don't have a date yet for the inspection.

Do you want the time off work if you were positive for Covid?

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@Captain24 wrote:

I think it’s something I’ve done to myself.

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What do you mean?

You're up early considering you worked last night. Or can't you sleep? I hope tonight you can do just the right amount of driving.

Are you ok @NatureLover ? Too upset??

If I was positive I wouldn’t have to work but woulda least have some reason for feeling miserable.

I don’t think my fluid intake is acceptable with the 40 degree heat.

I was on dayshift yesterday and start nights tonight. I go to bed at around 12 to have an afternoon sleep before I start.