I can’t cope

No stress @Captain24

You are all my forums family/friends. I don't like face to face stuff. I hate social stuff. I can put a show on and pretend I like it, but I deep down, hate it.

People don't realise the stress and anxiety when I go to an event. Hence I like taking the kids. I can sorta hide behind them because people focus on them, not me.

I must prefer text communication - hence the forums!

I don't even like speaking over the phone. Look, I do it, but it's not a preference.

With Peer Support, talking and providing peer support has reciprocal benefits. You gain, but so do I.

Although I'm highly qualified in other areas, I choose to stay in a peer support role because I absolutely love it. I find it very fulfilling.

BTW, I'm not saying peer support doesn't require skills. However, it doesn't require someone to have a bachelor, masters or PhD. You just need to be the expert in your experiences @Captain24

If you know what I mean.

I don't want people to think that peer support workers are not qualified, because yes, there are peer support certs etc out there.

I think in the future, the lived exp workforce will grow, and there will be already-created, high profile jobs out there - where there really isn't at the moment. You sort of need to develop it yourself.

Only recently lived experience was more recognised in MH so that all MH organisations needed to work towards having a lived exp workforce.

Heya @Captain24 ,

Im hopping off now. I'll catch you tomorrow morning/arvo. Early shift for me tomorrz 🙂

Please take care.

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@Captain24 wrote:

I’m just a severely depressed mess and it’s better that no one wants to be around anyway. I don’t think I could maintain a friendship. I’m struggling enough with myself.

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I want to be around @Captain24 .

And you don't have to maintain a freindship, we are here to support you.

Good luck with the difficult admissions forms. Also with getting through the weekend... 💙

Thanks @NatureLover.

i will do my best.

Sorry @tyme . I feel asleep and have only just woken up.

What’s your PhD in? @tyme

No no. I'm not doing a PhD. I'm doing research as part of a research team, but it's not towards a PhD. My research is based on therapy for BPD @Captain24 and to analyse interviews etc. I can't disclose exactly what the topic is, as it will be one of a kind when it's published and may then breach anonymity if you know what I mean 🙂

Hope I'm making sense.

That makes sense @tyme

Have you got any kids hanging around today?

Yeah… they’ve been all over me this morning. I try to get rid of them and tell them to leave me alone but the more I say it, the closer they get and they sit on top of me. @Captain24

They are sick though. I think they are all exhausted. @Captain24

I’ve told my sister that when we go to the holiday house, I want my own room and NO kids. I’ll let you know how that goes. lol.

What are you up to today?

I’m suppose to be trying to regulate my sleep after a couple of weeks not sleeping properly. Now I’m sleeping way more than I should be. I don’t know if it’s a good thing or not. I’m not sleeping during the day though. Even though it’s all I want to do to forget.

I have a lot of things that need to be done before I go back to work. I’ve just been looking around my house and it’s disgusting. My house usually depicts my mood. I never usually let it get this bad. I just don’t have it in to me tidy it up.

I know I need to face it and my back lawn but I just feel like I can’t. I still am barely able to out one foot in front of the other. The last couple of days. I get out of bed and then straight on the lounge. It’s lucky if I even remember to feed the dogs.

I know I need to distract myself from me being alone especially when I’m not comfortable with it. But it is so hard. I am just so exhausted that I just don’t have any energy at all. I am mentally and physically drained beyond the point of being able to function.

I am no longer living this life. This existence is just dragging me through.