I can’t cope

I deserve it @RiverSeal.

My previous posts show that.

Thank you for your kind words though. I do appreciate them.

I feel like bugs are walking all over me. My chest feels really heavy. I have chest pain. My heart rate is through the roof. I have a pounding headache and feel really dizzy and lightheaded.

I don’t think I’m really worth much.

Hey @Captain24

I'm sorry you are feeling like this tonight and I have sent you an email to check in with you about the physical symptoms you are experiencing.

Sitting with you in this tough time!

Thank you

RiverSeal

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@Captain24 wrote:

Hey @NatureLover

I drive a dump truck in a coal mine. Yea those big ones!

Hope all is well with you.

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Wow, @Captain24 , you could've blown me over with a feather when I read that! So unusual! 😃

I'm OK thanks although struggling to stay up and not go back to bed after breakfast (my usual action when a bit depressed).

"I feel like bugs are walking all over me. My chest feels really heavy. I have chest pain. My heart rate is through the roof. I have a pounding headache and feel really dizzy and lightheaded.

I don’t think I’m really worth much."

I was sad to read this...how are you feeling today?

I want to remind you that on the Character Survey you came in with the three kindest character traits. I forget exactly what they were called but they were the three I admire most - like kindness, empathy and something else. I really hope you don't hate yourself as it's hard to love and experience love when you hate yourself. I admire and like you, so I wanted to tell you that.

I really hope that today is a much better day for you...

Sorry you are feeling depressed @NatureLover. Is there anything you can do that will help lift you up from it?

It is a different kind of job. Out here though nobody thinks twice about it but we do have a couple of mines here.

Im feeling pretty sick today. I’m having a nap in my car instead of working. The boss is giving me a couple of hrs to see if I can go back in.

My mood is slightly better today but I’m self hatred is still there. I want to try and work on it with my psych.

The other strengths were honesty and perseverance. I guess you can see that I’m pretty honest! Lol.

Wishing you an ok day and you can find some peace.

Hi @Captain24

Have read back a bit. We really are hard on ourselves a times.

I hope today goes ok for you hon.

Sending lots of love 💗💗

Hey @Captain24 @sounds like yesterday was a bit of a rough one for you? But looks like today is a little better. That self hatred is a hard one but glad that you want to work on it with your psych.

sorry little pix needs surgery 😞 think it’s not as much as you had first anticipated? But still a lot. A lot of my cats have cost me a fortune and I always say to myself after another expensive surgery that I would get pet insurance but I never do! (I’ve had a cat get bitten by a tiger snake, hit by a car and had its jaw wired back together, a block urinary track, impacted hairballs, one cat ate a piece of foam from one of those puzzle floor mats, that was an expensive one!) but they are part of the family and we will spend the money to make them well.

hope today goes ok for you 💕

Today was okish I guess. @Snowie @Bow. I guess its just ‘it is what it is.’

Wow @Bow. You’ve been through a lot with your cats. Yes pixies operation is way cheaper than I thought.

Sorry guys I really just don’t have many words tonight. I feel like every time I open my mouth I offend someone.

Im just over existing. Oh and yes, unfortunately, I am safe.

Hey, things have been a little busy tonight... I hear Pix needs an op??? @Captain24 I'll read up later.

@Bow , oh yeah! I remember you got a kitten about a year ago?

Yeah she is booked in for Wednesday @tyme. She has a ruptured ligament that needs fixing asap and arthritis that they can’t do anything about.

It’s all good. Others need you and I don’t want to take away from anyone’s time.

Don’t worry about me. Im not really worth it today. Ps. That is definitely not attention seeking, just making that clear.

Hey @Captain24 ,

Please don't think it that way. I don't think that way at all.

A ruptured ligament is so so painful. If we did that to our leg (as humans), we would be in a moon boot and off weight bearing for a few weeks. Poor poor Pix. She must be in so much pain.. and to have arthritis must be so difficult....she's only a baby!

I was talking to my niece before and mentioned her 'lazy bone'... she said, 'I'm not lazy, I just like books!' I told her that she doesn't even try when doing maths etc... she said she hates maths and who needs maths anyway because in the olden days, they only had the three R's...

I asked her what the three R's were.... she said, Reading, Riting (Writing) and 'Rithmetic (Artithmetic)... so I asked her what arithmetic was... she says, "I don't know"... I said, "Ummm... that's maths"....

"Oh" was the reply...

Kids...

Anyway, sorry to bore you with my story this evening....