I can’t cope

I’ve just woken up from a pretty good sleep. But I haven’t woken up well. Yesterday is back plus all the thoughts of today. Sleep was my only escape. I’m still laying in bed listening to the storm pass by. I am still so tired.

I haven’t done anything. I feel sick from how I got to sleep. I have a headache. I still have no will to live. I’m safe.

It’s just all too hard right now. I’m sorry that I’m a burden to you all. But I do appreciate you looking out for me.

@MissGremlin @Cuddlebear @Nala2022 @Chasingsunsets 

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@Captain24 I'm sorry that you've woken up this way sweet. I know how hard it is and also know the feeling of waking up sick cos of how you got to sleep.

You're not a burden though sweetheart, i just wish I could help more other than just being here.

I’m sorry @MissGremlin

There is nothing anyone can do or say. Just listening is what I need. But I get the impression I’m borderline in trouble. That’s the last thing I need.

Im guessing you are getting dinner ready? Do you have daylight savings? Still half hour behind?

@Captain24 it's ok sweet, I'm still here for you and always happy to listen ❤️.

Dinner is already done, it was easy night tonight as I've got no energy. It's 5.10pm here.

@Captain24 Were here and I can’t stress enough you are not a burden. You are definately an absolutely wonderful human who never burdens anyone. Feeling awful and sharing here is not a burden. We understand how you feel. We’re going through it side by side and we know how hard that is.

How does listening to the storm make you feel? Is it mind if soothing? Is there any lightening you can see that looks pretty? It always blows my mind how pretty lightening is while at the same time it can be dangerous. To me thunderstorms are like a beautiful nature play especially if you’re safely tucked inside and safe.

@Jynx @AuntGlow

Are either of you around?

@Captain24 We are very happy to listen. It should not get you in trouble at all as sharing how you feel and us listening is part of being recovery focused.

@MissGremlin is a true super star. We are luck to all have each other.

I get the no energy @MissGremlin Im still laying in bed dozing on and off. If the dogs didn’t have to eat I’d just stay here.

What did you have?

@Captain24 I really didn't want to get out of bed this morning but in saying that it also didn't feel safe being in there after the horrible night I had. So I migrated to the lounge and did my diamond art.

I didn't have anything, I'm not hungry at the moment. I ate a little bit of roast beef earlier today. Have you had something to eat today sweet?