I can’t cope

Ok. I’ve just climbed into bed. My house is as cold as I can make and as dark as I can get it. It’s the same as sleeping for night shift.

Im going to try and get some sleep to put some distance between me and my desperation. Thank you both but I know what it’s like having pressure and I do t want to do that to either of you.

You don’t have to worry about me and can put me out of your mind. I’m better off alone. I’m no burden to anyone then. I deserve to be alone.

@MissGremlin @Nala2022 

@Captain24 I'm glad that you're in bed sweet and i hope you're able to get some sleep.

You're never a burden here sweetheart and I'm always glad that I can be here for you. Know that I'm thinking of you, please be gentle with yourself, you mean alot to me ❤️.

@Captain24 You don't need to apologise for struggling or worry about being a burden, you're most certainly not a burden. You deserve support and care, especially when things feel this desperate. I hear that you're hoping sleep will give you some distance from these feelings, and I hope you can get some rest.

You matter and don't deserve to be alone, and you don't have to earn support by being okay. We will be here when you decide to come back 💛

I’ve just woken up @MissGremlin @Nala2022

It was nice to have a reprieve for a while. I even reached out to a crisis service. They were not helpful at all just sent me a link to a 2 minute breathing exercises and ended the chat. I even said my distress level was a 9. I never reach out so that was hard enough and then getting dismissed makes it harder to try again.

Im still laying in bed as I have a fear of getting up but I guess I have to have dinner at some stage. I have to face aimw time out of bed.

Sorry to hear reaching out was not helpful this time @Captain24 . We acknowledge the effort it took for you to reach out in the first place.

Perhaps the next time you reach out, it may be more helpful?

Hey @Captain24 just wanted to come by I heard you have been struggling and wanted to let you know you are not alone. I have preferred lifeline over SCBC, but then I guess it’s who’s on the other line too.

I hope things can settle for you a bit, right now I am lying under my weighted blanket. Hoping I might be up for a walk soon, what’s on for your evening?

Hello @Captain24 sweet, I'm glad that you got a bit of sleep. I'm so proud of you for reaching out but I'm sorry that you didn't find it helpful, just know that there are some really good people out there to talk to in amongst the bad ones.

I've just woken up in a panic after trying to get some rest after having an ambulance here for almost 3 hours (I'm safe). I'm here with you sweet and we can take the evening one step at a time together ❤️.

Hey @Chasingsunsets

It’s pretty tough today. I’m not up for trying again. It just made my distress even worse.

Going for a walk sounds nice. I’m just sitting in the lounge with my dogs watching tv and comfort eating.

I’m sorry you have woken up in a panic. Are you ok? That’s a long time. For an ambulance @MissGremlin

I’m not sure I can do one step at a time. I’m still really distressed and I’m not coping. I’m safe at the moment but who knows.

@Captain24 it's a horrible way to wake up. I spoke to health direct here and they wanted me to at least let the paramedics come and check me out. They wanted me to go to hospital for blood tests but it wasn't an option as I can't leave Casper home alone. Between what's been going on and my heart playing up things are really messed up (I'm safe).

How can we work together to help you get through the night safely sweet? I'm here for you, you're not alone ❤️.