I can’t cope

Thanks @MissGremlin

Same to you

Hey @Nala2022

It is difficult and feels like it’s getting worse. I desperately want that feeling back. But I’m a really small part of my brain, I know it’s not healthy. That’s what leads to bipolar suffers to make expensive or unsafe decisions. I was driving rather quickly to work but it didn’t matter as nothing was going to happen. It was nothing for me to get my car up to 150 km/hr

I have responded.

I really don’t have anyone that I can reach out too.

Thankyou @Captain24 sweet ❤️.

Have you got any ideas of what you're going to do today?

Not really @MissGremlin There is only one thing that’s in my mind but it’s not ok. I’m struggling with it.

@Captain24 I'm sorry things are feeling like they're getting worse, and that you're missing that feeling of invincibility so much. It sounds like you're finding things incredibly difficult right now, and I can understand how lonely it must feel when you don't have someone you feel you can reach out to

I'm glad there's a part of you that recognises the risks, even when the urge to feel that way again is so strong. You deserve support with what you're experiencing, and you shouldn't have to wait until things reach crisis point to receive it

I'm concerned about how much you're struggling at the moment. I've also responded to your email reply, please check your inbox when you can 💛

@Captain24 I'm sorry that thought is so strong sweet. Could you try doing something safe and see if it helps to quieten that thought, even if it's just a little?

I don’t know what to do @Nala2022 @MissGremlin

I have a lot to do around the house but I just can’t. I know that that isn’t helpful. I sat at my diamond art, I or a 3D puzzle out, I went outside. I gave the dogs a bone and Jett didn’t want it.

I think I might drag myself into the shower and go back to bed but laying there tossing and turning is hard too.

Im really not coping and I’m going to disappear for a while and try and get myself a little together. I don’t want to be alone but I need to not put this pressure on anyone.

Im really sorry guys.

@Captain24 try to be gentle on yourself sweetheart and know that we're here so don't be afraid to reach out. Sending you lots of love and hugs ❤️.

@Captain24 Please don't apologise, you're not putting pressure on us by sharing how you're feeling. and I'm sorry things are feeling so overwhelming right now, I can hear how hard you're trying to find something that helps

You don't need to get everything around the house done today. It's okay to let those things wait and focus on looking after yourself. I hear that you need some space, but I'm concerned about you being alone with how much you're struggling right now

I've replied to your email response as well. You deserve support through this, and you don't have to manage it all by yourself 💛