I can’t cope

@Captain24 shouldn't even be wandering the streets!

I had a chicken burger, some chips and a seafood stick. I couldn't cook tonight. I am indeed alone, well other than Casper who is driving me crazy cos he won't settle.

Kids are out and about for a while here as it’s a pretty safe area. @MissGremlin

That sounds good. My pasta was good. I only cook half it now as a full one was too much for me now.

I’m sitting here watching a said part of tv and crying. I hope that’s ok to say as it’s only tv. I’m safe and have no plans and my life is wonderful and I’m excited. The world smells like roses.

@Captain24 I mean it's good that it's a safe area but kids need to learn respect.

I'm glad you ate some pasta.

Awww hugs sweet ❤️. Haha oh that made me laugh, yeah life is just peachy!

I feel like I’m getting a cold. @MissGremlin Probably from the cold water swimming. 😝 I’ve got a slight headache and slightly achy. My nose is running too!

I’ve taken my meds and a little extra in the hope that sleep finds me and keeps me asleep. That would be really nice.

I’m going to finish this episode and try going to bed. It would be nice to wake up refreshed but I’m due for another needle tomorrow. So it all starts again for no gain.

@Captain24 I'm actually feeling the same way, my body feels all weird. Hoping that we both wake up tomorrow feeling ok.

I'm about to go to bed aswell just have to take Casper out to the toilet and do my hair, fingers crossed we can get a good sleep.

I hope you start seeing results from the needles soon sweet.

I’ve just turned the tv off and about to have a shower. I’m going downhill fast! @MissGremlin I just took more stuff in the hope of catching it before it gets any worse. I’m going to rattle even more than usual! 😂

Just so you know, the downhill is about a head cold and nothing else. The world still smells like roses and life is perfect.

I hope so. It’s feeling like it’s not worth all the side effects. I guess I just have to wait it out for a bit. I see my gp in about 4 weeks. Hopefully something has changed in that time.

I hope you can manage some sleep. Maybe try a shower since you are alone.

@Captain24 hoping that it helps to stop it from getting worse. Haha I use that saying about rattling 😂.

Maybe it's not the right one for you, I know there's a few different types out there. See how things are when you see your GP next and go from there.

I've been trying so hard to sleep but I keep having nightmares, hallucinations and panic attacks. It's going to be a long night. I'm safe, laying in bed snuggled up with Casper.

Hi @MissGremlin

It sounds like you’re having a particularly difficult night tonight, especially with the nightmares, hallucinations and panic attacks making it so difficult to get some rest. I can imagine how distressing and exhausting that must be when you’re already trying so hard to sleep. I'm glad to hear you’re feeling safe and have Casper keeping you company tonight. I encourage you tor reach out tonight if you feel that you need any extra support. If you haven't already, maybe also speaking with a healthcare professional about these experiences, particularly the hallucinations, so you can receive appropriate support. If you’d like to talk to someone tonight, you can reach out to Health Direct at 1800 022 222 to speak with an RN🩺In the meantime, I hope you’re able to find some comfort and get some much-needed rest.

Take extra gentle care,

SunsetSunrise ✨🌻

Hello @SunsetSunrise, it's frustrating when I'm so exhausted and trying to not use unhealthy coping strategies just so that I can sleep. I know why I'm having the hallucinations and i think it's just going to take time to settle down if I can stay strong. It's really hard on nights like this when I become so desperate for sleep, for relief of feeling this way, that temptation becomes so strong (I'm safe). I'll reach out to the appropriate services though if I feel I need to.

Thankyou, I hope you're having a quiet evening ❤️.

This is the 5th time I have been awake tonight. I don’t understand what is wrong. Right now I’m here comfy and cosy but still awake. It is making me question a lot. Have I done something to deserve this? Maybe it’s punishment for something. Maybe I’m not good enough to deserve decent sleep. I have some really bad thoughts going through my head. The noise has been a little quieter but not right now. There are things I want to do. I’m safe just urges that I have control of right now. I’m wishing I wasn’t alive though. All this just because my sleep has been so difficult the last 2 weeks,

Everytbing I’m in right now causes extreme tiredness which I have but if I could manage decent sleep like I’m use to then that would make things so much easier