I can’t cope

@Captain24 very true 😂.

Oh I won't forget your birthday, it's saved into my phone 😂.

It's hard that you can't afford appointments at the moment. I just thought that maybe getting it out could help and then when you do get to see her you can discuss it together.

I know it's so different that the PSW's aren't around much anymore and the engagement from them seems to be minimal. I've struggled with that change but I'm glad I've got some close connections with people on here.

I might try that next time to see if it helps. I just don't know if it's cos of meds coming out my system or what is causing it. At times it's like severe vertigo where even walking i have to lean against the wall as everything is tilting and i can't stand straight.

I'm alone until tomorrow but then again on Tuesday-Thursday/Friday.

I’m not a person that gets star struck. We have had few people come to town. No one extremely famous but well known and you would know them well if I told you. I just talk to them as I walk past. I was an extra on a tv show that was filmed here. Some of those stars were pretty big but still not starstruck. I did fall in love with Nicole DeSilva though. Frankie from Wentworth. She is absolutely beautiful and now I’m obsessed. BUT if Kylie was anywhere near me I would just stand there with my mouth open on not be able to speak!!! 😂 @MissGremlin

I won’t see her for another 4 weeks now. So it’ll be 7 weeks between appointments and everything will have changed! It’s along time.

Their insight was really helpful as they have been through it too. Like I get where you are at and can understand and sympathise but you don’t know what I’m feeling. I really really wish you did though! But they would able to tell me their experience and I could be a little less confused. Which is what I thought this was about. I don’t really have anyone other than you.

I had a massive vertigo attack at hospital when I was in there. It felt like they had given me too much. They checked my charts numerous times and the meds they gave me were right. I just collapsed in the chair and could talk really well. My words were slurring and the head spin was ridiculous. It was like my head was literally moving in circles with it. They considered calling an ambulance but my hospital psychiatrist said to see if I sleep iy off but to keep watching me.

@Captain24 I've met quite a few people aswell some of them a few times. One of my teachers (drama) from school was on home and away for several episodes, she passed away several years ago now and it still hits me so hard. I've got many encouraging notes from her and little messages in my school books, she was one of the very few teachers that actually cared about me and tried to support me. I'm getting emotional just thinking about her, we reconnected after i wasn't in school anymore and were talking up until she passed after going in for having her tonsils out, she was fine initially coming out of surgery awake but then complications hit and she passed away. She's still in my Facebook friends list and we share things about her regularly.

That is a long time between appointments but I hope it's a good one when you do get to speak to her.

That's the thing with the whole lived experience in that they could share with us and help us through cos they've been in similar or same situations.

I'll be back in a little bit. I need a moment to gather myself (I'm safe). I'm going to feed Casper, take him to the toilet while I breathe in the cold fresh air and grab a drink.

This place is giving me the shits. I’ve written a long response and it wouldn’t accept it now if won’t let my post in little bits. There is nothing in the post that is wrong

Anyway there was a whole story to that post but this place won’t let me write it. It's F******!

@Captain24 that sounds absolutely horrible and scary. I've had vertigo a few times where it's been so severe that I've not been able to get out of bed without falling over.

I'm sorry you lost a post sweet, it's happened to me a few times recently and I have to step away as it triggers me.

There was a point to my story but with out it all it doesn’t make any sense. I’ve got the post but it won’t let me post it even in little bits. @MissGremlin

Im really really angry right now. I’m fuck ing p!ssed off! Yes I can write the first word but not the second or a harmless post! Go figure!

I need to calm down before I get back on here or I will probably actually see a mod.. not to be helpful though.

@Captain24 i can understand how you feel. Is there maybe a word that is not allowed to be said on here, though it should come up with a message if that's the case?

Take a breath sweet and take the time you need. Sending you love and hugs ❤️.

Hello friends @Captain24, @MissGremlin 💛

How are you both?

I can see you are having some challenges with sharing some posts. Can you please share a bit more about what is happening and report it to our tech team?

I feel like I saw someone else experiencing this issue recently, so it's important that we address it.

Other than this, it's so nice to see you both around. I am catching up on posts this weekend, as I have had a bit more time off lately, but I am still here and looking forward to hearing from you. 🥰