I can’t cope

Stress is normal. But the fact that you came back from it is good. @MissGremlin

Im so glad you have kept it.

It sounds like a busy week. At least you don’t have the regular routine to contend with. Just what needs to be done. I’m glad you are going out with the others.

Things are getting done and finally! I’m hoping something comes out of it all.

I just want to point something out… ‘could do without the constant head spins’ no is getting me down. No it’s sending me into a spiral. No it makes me sick. No negativity. Just healthy respect for them!

@Captain24 it's really strange that it's lasted this long. Usually I'm waiting for that sudden crash but today I've tried to just take things as they come.

I'm really hoping that something comes out of it as I need that long term support, not just a few weeks and then left with nothing again.

I've pretty much accepted that the headspins are a result of what's happened so I just have to manage them the best I can. Yes it's annoying but I also know they won't last forever so I'm trying to not let it bring me down. They just come at the most inconvenient times 😂.

You have no idea how happy I am for you @MissGremlin and to be able to take it as it comes. Yes you are kinda waiting for the crash, I was too. This may be a start of good things to come. You had a whole day not just a couple of hours. I’m really hoping to continues to roll through for you.

Support would be really good.

Acceptance is a start. Just little things.

I am wondering whether it has anything to do with making time for yourself this week and not pushing through the everyday routine. The fact that you survived when it scared you when you found out you may not. Maybe it was a blessing in disguise!

Thankyou @Captain24 sweet ❤️. It's nice to know what that feeling feels like for a longer time rather than just the very brief moments i usually have. I'm trying to not put pressure on myself for wishing that it will stay but rather just take each moment as it comes.

It may very well, deciding to take a break from routine was a big thing and it's helping to not be running on a constant schedule, but just enjoying things and doing things when I want to not have to (to a degree 😂). That fear of when things took a turn was scary as hell and I think has made me realise a bit that even though I might not always feel it there's a part of me that does want to survive this.

I'm getting sleepy here so I'm thinking I'll finish this section of diamond art and then hopefully get some sleep.

You are looking at it all the right way. @MissGremlin

Really hope tomorrow is as good for you as well.

Im about to go to bed too

Sleep well.

@Captain24 hope you get a good sleep sweet, lots of love and hugs to you. Night night ❤️.

Maybe @MissGremlin 

I hope you can @Captain24 sweet, but if you can't sleep and want some company feel free to tag me, I'll still be awake for a while yet ❤️.

.

I’m really not feeling life today. I’m so tired, I feel off and I have pain in my leg muscles. The pain is intense.

Im just cooking dinners and then have to go to the chemist for my appointment. All I want to do is sleep. I’m exhausted.

I think the new medications are affecting me. But I just have to push through it. No pain no gain I guess.

Im really not feeling the best.