I can’t cope

@Captain24 I really wish I could just sit with you and do diamond art but I've got to head out soon.

I dozed off for a little bit but I woke up in a panic and my head is absolutely pounding. All those thoughts/urges came rushing to me the second I woke up (I'm safe).

I'll reply to your other post a little bit after.

@Captain24 I'm so glad you were able to talk things through with your psych. You've done amazing to commit to making so many changes in order to better yourself both mentally and physically, I'm so proud of you and i know your psych is aswell.

Even when it all felt like it was crashing down you allowed yourself to feel it but then you put things into place to make changes. I know it's hard work but you've got this sweet ❤️.

She is amazing and helps so much. Not every psych is like that. I got one of the special ones. She was really excited when I said the is an odd day here and there that I don’t actually have to work hard. Mostly I do though @MissGremlin

I think I have it all covered. Taking health wise slowly working on my mental health. I think it will slowly all come together. I hope so. Not as fast as I would really like but I have to put the time in and do it all slowly and steadily to make it all stick. I have mum behind me too. So that’s good.

I am proud of myself. Maybe I’ll have my whole life together! 😜 who would have thought this a couple of months ago.

Im sorry you were in a panic. That must be so hard to feel it all the time. Did you hear from your doctor?

@Captain24 you definitely got one of the good ones. Even having those odd days is huge progress!

Yes slowly and steadily, you don't want to rush and then things fall apart later. I'm so glad you've got mum behind you aswell.

With all the hard work you put in, I knew that things would get better for you.

It's horrible to have it all the time, especially when you wake up with it. I haven't heard from my doctor unfortunately.

I told her the other day I nearly cried because I felt so good and never thought that that would happen for me. @MissGremlin

I wish you could do medication it would be so helpful. I can do it without it.

Panic must be so horrible. I get in a panic and I have anxiety attacks but nowhere near like yours

I’m trying to smash out this section. I’ve 2 1/2 hours to finish it. I want it finished today

@Captain24 I can understand the emotions around it but I'm so glad that you've experienced that happiness now.

I wish I could, the fact that this one is reacting with me is so disappointing.

My body is in a constant state of panic but when the actual attacks come on it's so hard to deal with, it takes hours to calm down from them.

I'm hoping you can finish it, i only did one section of it one on my table today but at least I've made it over half way with it now.

My head is absolutely pounding, I feel so sick from it. I just want to lay down but I've got so much to do.

I can imagine it’s disappointing @MissGremlin

I couldn’t cope with that level of panic. At least have tools to help me settle.

Sorry about your headache and that you can’t lay down yet.

Yay at being over half way!

Im still trying to smash this section out. I’m close. I still have to make my rolls for lunches, cook my dinner and sort all my meds out! I’m feeling really rushed

@Captain24 I have tools but when the panic is intense nothing works, I still try though.

I get that rushed feeling, I'm feeling that tonight with trying to get everything done. I haven't stopped since I got home. I took pain relief earlier but decided to take 2 of the strong one in the hopes it would help to settle my migraine but it hasn't, I'm just feeling the side effects cos of taking too much previously (I'm safe)😞. Maybe you could pause to do your work food and put dinner on then come back to it after?

Have you got everything sorted yet? @MissGremlin

Im about to cook dinner and do

lunches, meds and sort out the dogs for the diamond art I’m taking to work tomorrow and grab a book!

Its finished

@Captain24 I've done everything, I'm in my pjs, done my teeth and hair and I'm sitting in bed. I've had to shut my door, I'm in complete overwhelm and I'm really struggling with my thoughts, I feel so on edge (I'm safe for now).

What's for dinner tonight sweet? I'm glad you're taking the diamond art and a book to work tomorrow.

Yay for it being finished. I'm going to start working on my mystery one in a minute if I can stop shaking.