I can’t cope

I’m sitting here crying. My back is just so sore. I can hardly move and I have to keep going for the next 6 days. Hopefully it settles by morning but I don’t think so.

Im really really struggling. I really don’t want to do this anymore. I’m falling apart. I’m in a million pieces. Just watching tv show and it’s just broken me so much. I have nothing. I am nothing. I don’t think I can do this. I’m safe but wish I wasn’t.

I hurt so much. I thought that maybe I was starting to get through this but I am still deep

in a bipolar depression.

Im just feeling really alone in my real life. I just need to ramble

Sorry @AuntGlow i missed this.

The chiropractor didn’t help at all today.

I am not good enough.

@Captain24

I can hear how difficult things are right now. I know that bipolar depression can feel all-encompassing, so it's important for you (and for the community) that you're taking steps to look after yourself - even if that means taking a step away from the forums so you can reach out to a crisis service.

Is there some small, easy step to take towards self-care that you can take? A cup of tea, some deep breathing, some self-reassurances? I understand it might seem impossible but I know you can do it.

I’m sorry @Jynx

Everything just feels impossible. I’ll feed the dogs shortly and then try and get myself to bed. Even feeding the dogs seems to hard.

I can’t describe how I feel it doesn’t have words.

I will step away and work through it myself. That way I don’t upset anyone else or get into any trouble.

I am safe at the moment but just see what the night brings. I’ll reach out first.

Goodbye

Thanks for letting me know that you're safe and that you'll reach out if you need to @Captain24. I believe in you and your ability to get through this rough period of time. Keep the dogs close and just focus on one step at a time.

Hope you can get some sleep <3