I can’t cope

I can understand that. It’s working out for her but nobody wants to help you. What have you done wrong? Why don’t you deserve it? Why couldn’t it be you? @MissGremlin 

@Captain24 exactly!

You feel selfish for feeling that way. Selfish that it’s happening to her and not you. You wish that it was you getting the help! @MissGremlin

Know that I get it and I think it’s a reasonable feeling. Especially under your circumstances. I really wish you could go to hospital but with your life it’s not possible.

You are allowed to be feeling this way. You are allowed to feel like shutting down. It’s not helpful to do though.

I don’t know what to say to help. But I do hear you. I actually felt that way when my friend went to hospital earlier in the year. I wanted that to be me. I actually had 2 in at the same time. 2 different hospitals. Why could they get help yet I was drowning and couldn’t go and get what I needed

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Don’t feel bad for it @MissGremlin I feel bad that I’ve got the support and you don’t. The only reason I have it is that a pay a lot for it or I wouldn’t have it either.

You probably are happy for me but feel like why can’t it be you. It’s ok to say so. I’d probably feel the same!

I get the feeling of broken beyond repair. It must feel like that. You try your best and are turned away at every corner. I just wish someone would pick you up.

I didn’t know that there was such a thing as bringing families. I don’t actually think I’d want them there as it would be a distraction instead of focusing on myself.

I did write another sentence but I’ll re write that when we are on at the exact same time .

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@Captain24 no.

That’s a bugger. @MissGremlin

Ive got nothing sorry. But I hope it helps to have actually said it and realised that it is ok to feel that way and that I’ve had similar feelings myself just not the no support.

@Captain24 it's just so hard. Thankyou though sweet, for listening. I really just needed to get it out as I've been sitting with it all inside.