I can’t cope

@Captain24 i hear you sweet and I understand about not liking to talk to someone you don't know.

You could still email your psych, maybe there's the option that she could ring you?

Going back to bed is also ok, just know that I'm here sweet ❤️.

I know how hard crying can be for you @Captain24 and how it takes a lot for you to get to this point. I do hope that it offers some release of all the emotions that you've been carrying.

Yes, give feedback when you feel able to. What you've shared already is impactful. It's hard to hear that you're not feeling the care on the forums at the moment, but it's valid and important to hear that. and I want to assure you that nothing you've shared is going to get you in trouble

If you're not sure about the roles of mod and PSWs then it's probably a sign there needs to be more clarity and that's something we can raise.

For now please take care of yourself. Maybe you could still try to contact your psych, you never know if she might be able to fit you in.

I have just sent her an email telling her I’m not coping and that I’m crying and if she could fit me in this week or next week I would appreciate it. @MissGremlin

I have so much to do that I don’t have the time to go back to bed but all I’m doing is sitting on the lounge anyway. It’s all to overwhelming, my life, my emotions, my bipolar (I usually don’t complain about it), everything I have to do in the next 2 days to get ready for work and to get ready for holidays.

Holidays is overwhelming me too. I don’t want to see my brother and especially as much as he wants to spend time with us. Usually it’s just a dinner or a walk along the beach. I don’t like him and neither does Pix. I don’t like him and mum together, I don’t need the criticism, they join forces against me whenever they are together too long. Then the afternoons that I get to go to the beach and have some space from everyone and everything , I have a friend that has invited her self to come and spend 3 afternoons at the beach with me. I love her dearly but I just need space away from being with people 24 hours a day. My psych was like ‘oh no’ when I told her she was coming.

I have an appointment next week. @MissGremlin. So it won’t be three weeks until I see her. So that’s a good thing.

@Captain24 I'm really proud of you for emailing her and I'm glad that she's been able to get you in sooner.

Would doing just a couple of things maybe help? Even if it's just small things, it might make those feelings a little less intense.

I hear your worries about the holidays and not wanting to see your brother. I'm sorry that him and your mum together criticise you and join forces, I know from my own experiences that it's so tough and hurtful to have that happen. With your friend are you able to put in some boundaries such as maybe she only joins for for a day or 2 or even only a short period of the walk so that you can still get that space and time to yourself?

@Captain24 Please do what you feel is right for you 🫂🫂

if you don’t feel up to tagging or posting, please don’t let that worry you.

think I’m fairly safe in saying that @AlwaysMyself @MissGremlin and myself fully understand and our concerns are about you.

With being a person who doesn’t cry a lot, it doesn’t ‘feel right’ when start crying. I know that personally, that was me couple years ago. I’m still not comfortable crying in front of anyone. At home when I’m safe it’s the opposite. If I need to cry, it doesn’t worry me anymore.

crying can be good (might not feel it at the time, I get that 100%). Crying is part of the human emotional release system.

I share your feeling of there not being the amount of support on the forums from PSW’s as there used to be. I don’t like it. Support, words of encouragement etc from @MissGremlin @AlwaysMyself and others I do appreciate. It’s not the same though. I miss the chats and supports from @Ru-bee @Jynx @AuntGlow especially. At times feels like decisions higher up are leaving us completely on own and deserted by PSW’s. (No insult meant to PSW’s, I understand whatever is currently going on is out of control of all of you)

They can’t even fix the support button.

I have an appointment with my psych at 5 this afternoon. @Ru-bee

I really do appreciate all the support you are all giving me @Flutterbug9 @MissGremlin @AlwaysMyself I do hear you that PSW can offer more in depth support. I feel like a burden to you all and it’s a lot that I’m going through for you to deal with when suffering yourself.

I feels so wrong to be crying. I despise it (I’ve changed my use of that other word for you!) It’s been ongoing since lunch time. I’m ashamed of it. Hopefully I don’t cry in my psych appointment. That will be extra embarrassing. Maybe now that I have let it out it’ll be easier, I don’t know.

I now need to get out of bed. Well in the next hour anyway. I’ll need to throw a top on as I guess I probably shouldn’t have a pyjama top on! My pj shorts and Ugg boots can stay. The benefits of Telehealth!

I want you all to know that I really do appreciate what you are going for me. I know I’m placing a lot on you and for that I’m really sorry.

@Flutterbug9 you'd definitely be right there sweet.

I also get the discomfort when it comes to crying, I don't like crying and I do my best not to. But when those tears start to flow there's sometimes no stopping them and it's horrible for me cos I don't feel in control and that scares me.

I completely understand it not being the same, the PSW's words of support and encouragement hit differently.

I'll leave it there as I'm about to start driving again.

Love and hugs to you and @Captain24

Hey @Captain244 i'm back from my appointment time.

Sorry things have really escallated further for you today. Super glad your psych is going to call you at 5 tho

I doubt the psych will care if you are in PJs and crying - but if you dont feel.comfortable like that, that is also

I've had days where i have arrived to my counsellor appointment already crying 😅, which was ironic because she had been wondering from previous sessions if i was emotionally not able to feel or cry 😅 (but she hadnt said anything lol). It can be good for them to see the range of emotions and moods i reckon - positive and negative.

I'm so glad that you were able to make that appointment @Captain24 good on you for reaching out

I do want you to know that we really do hear you @MissGremlin @Captain24 @Flutterbug9 and that the PSWs do care very much about this community. I want to reiterate that if you feel comfortable you can always tag me (and the other PSWs/mods) and I will respond when I can 💜