I can’t cope

@Captain24 “run the dishwasher twice”. Advice I remember a therapist giving to a person who was struggling with not remembering if was clean or dirty dishes in the dishwasher. Theme behind it being, there is always another option.

you Are NOT self centred. To me, self centred person only cares about and focuses on themself and nothing else. That is NOT YOU. It can be hard for a person to see themselves when going through really hard times. That’s what being about of the community is good for. People here for you who care, listen, understand and support you.

you are not self centred. Why do I say this …. The love of you life are your 2 dogs. You honestly care about other people. You honestly listen and support others.

ivdo the same with the dishwasher until my kitchen bench starts to get too much for me to cope with, that’s when I put clean dishes etc away (sometimes not much left in the dishwasher by then).

my washing machine and dryer are side by side. Not unusually for me to have put one or both running and then remember a few days later (towels left in washing machine the last day was 4 days, not pleasant on the nose). You are welcome to laugh.

iron left on, I’ve been there done that. I no longer own an iron or iron board, safer.

There is no such thing as “normal” when it comes to MH. Impact of things in our past changes out brains which has flow through with huge number of things.

One minute at a time, one hour at a time, one day at a time.
Try not to punish yourself when things don’t go as would like (I know that easier said than done). You are doing amazing things everyday.

Thanks for your kind words everyone.

I want to be around and here for you but I’m just struggling so much as you all are but you are able to be here for me.

Im ok if my lack of capacity is to hard for you all and want to step back.

I just had 2 hours sleep and still can’t function.

Im a lot of distress right now. I’m scared and I’m not coping. I don’t think I can do this. I can sit with it all. My psychs words are echoing my head ‘there’s not much you can do but ride it out’ I am safe, I don’t have the energy or capacity not to be. It hurts so much. I’m even struggling to look after my dogs, They are ok though, please don’t think I would neglect them.

If I’m not able to help anyone maybe I shouldn’t be here. The mods are no longer around to help us out so it’s up to us to do it and I am having trouble trying to reciprocate to you all.

I am really sorry.

@Captain24 oh sweetheart, I'm sorry things are so hard.

I'm here for you sweet and we'll get through this ❤️.

Hey @Captain24 I'm hearing how hard things are right now and that your focus needs to be on supporting yourself. For all of us there are times when we are able to give support and times when we just need to receive it, that ebb and flow is completely natural and okay. Voicing it can be helpful, and if you are feeling like you need to step back to take care of you that's completely okay, but it's also okay to be here and acknowledge that right now you just need to receive support from the community.

I know that it's been really hard while we all try to ride this wave of change on the forums, it's been amazing getting to see the peer support on here, but I'm also hoping that as things settle you're able to feel the mod support again. Please know that you can always tag us too 💜

There’s no point in tagging anyone @Ru-bee. No one is around or has the time. It’s like you aren’t allowed to support anymore or don’t want to. I think quite a few members think along a similar line. I’m sure 90% of posts aren’t even read or seen.

Thanks for taking some time out to acknowledge me though.

I’m actually crying and I don’t cry @MissGremlin I can’t stop it. I’m completely broken. I feel like I’m having a breakdown. it’s all gotten to much to frying

@Captain24 oh sweetheart, those tears are a sign of how strong you've been for so long, it's ok to let them flow and I'm right here with you as they do.

I'm here to talk, to listen, to sit with you, whatever you feel you need right now, you are not alone ❤️.

Would it help to ring someone like beyond blue or lifeline? Sometimes it can help to hear a reassuring voice, they are good at listening and being understanding when things feel overwhelming. No pressure of course, it was just a thought, I'm not going anywhere either way ❤️

One thing that hasn't changed is how much we care for the forums community @Captain24 but of course there have been changes and it's clear that the community feels it, we do too. While we're still going through this change period it's really important to hear what's not working so any time you feel able I think it's important to voice how you're feeling and what your experience is on here, but of course look after you first, I know giving feedback can be hard

I’m sitting here bawling my eyes out and I don’t cry @Ru-bee Everything has gotten too much in my life. Not the lack of support from sane.

I actually doesn’t feel like there is any care with the forums anymore. Every time there is changes the forums get neglected. Maybe I’m misinterpreting the roles between moderators and PSW.

I would like to provide feedback. Right at this very moment is probably not a good idea as I’ll get banned.

I keep getting emails to donate. Why would I donate again.

I can’t stop them @MissGremlin

I dont usually ring crisis lines. I don’t like talking to someone I don’t know.

I have considered emailing my psych to see if she has a spare appointment today but it’s too late in the day. But what can she do anyway.

I think I might go back to bed. I’m only going to get into trouble on here. If I’m not already. I think I’ve said too much. I shouldn’t voice my opinion right now. I should count myself lucky that tyme is still around. Not everyone gets that.