I can’t cope

@Captain24 hope you can get a good sleep sweetheart.

Sending you lots of love and hugs ❤️

My pleasure @Captain24 🫶

I am with you. I haven't experienced this, but it sounds incredibly hard.

Ah, this is so good to hear. When will your appointment be?

Heard and held - we can do that, right? @MissGremlin @Flutterbug9 @Jynx @tyme 😉💖

What are you doing for yourself this minute?

@AuntGlow we most definitely can ☺️

@Captain24 you are precious!! I'm glad to hear I made your tummy do a lil jump hehe that makes me very happy!

I am once again flabbergasted at how productive you are of a morning! Honestly it takes me hours and hours to cook meals, I usually have to set aside a whole evening. And my mornings typically involve a lot of bumming around, watching tv or scrolling memes whilst I wait for my brain to start working properly 😅

It's a little bit the training and absorbing all the new info, and it's a little bit because of how behind I am on all my life admin. I wish modern life involved more whimsy and fewer emails 😑

What are your go-to meals when you're meal prepping?

Also love the idea of frozen towels to keep your pups cool!! I think my cats would probably protest very loudly if I tried that 😂

Hey @Captain24 ,

Hope work is okay...

BIG day. My brain is frazzled. I had to work to 'reset' myself. But it was a great day. We had just over 30 people come over. I spent my time rounding up the 1-2 year olds so they wouldn't run onto the road!

And the 3 year olds who follow the older kids and think they can ride on the road and do whatever.. it was cute, but hard work!

We starting playing in the court, then moved to the park, then they came back for lunch. Some went home and others went in the pool.

Ruby didn't know what was going on, but she's crate and pen trained so she just stayed in her pen.

Even when people were still here, I said bye to them, went to my office and then had a few hours of training here!

So yeah... brain is frazzled... hope to have a GOOOOOD sleep! I need a cool shower though. It will be HOT tomorrow but i guess you like the heat!

I'll be on Saturday night if you are around... oh.. actually, I think you said you have night shift for the next few nights???

Take care hun

Been thinking of you @Captain24 , even whilst I haven't been online.

I love how much you clearly love Pix and Jett. 😍. I love the idea of the cold/frozen towels for this weekend when it's extra-hot. Such a great simple, affordable, and practical idea! Sometimes I've put ice cubes in the water bowl, but not thought of a cold towel before.

Hope work shift is going OK and a good distraction. Hope you get a good sleep afterwards.

11pm here, so I should prob try to go to bed to sleep also so I don't get my sleep schedule slowly creeping later and later.

I did have a good sleep @MissGremlin except that I forgot to turn all my alarms for my meds and stuff off!

Work went ok. I made myself busy. I hope I have the same thing for the next 2 nights. There is no pressure.

Ive just gotten home and im going to feed the dogs and myself and then have a shower and go to bed. I’m feeling a big tired.

How are you going?

Thanks @AuntGlow

It is hard. I’m not saying it’s worse than depression as it’s not really comparable and I don’t want to invalidate anyone else. It’s just really different and it is so hard.

My appointment is the 3rd of Feb. Bug it’s a day that I’m suppose to be sleeping so I want to see if they are able to move it to the next day. Probably can’t with so many problems actually getting an appointment.

I was asleep when you posted. I had nightshift last night and tonight and tomorrow night. So I don’t really have much downtime to think so that’s a good thing.

You make me smile @Jynx and that’s really hard to do right now.

I don’t really see it as productive. My house use to be such a mess. Rubbish everywhere, stuff all over the floors, no clean dishes, clothes thrown everywhere. I couldn’t have anyone over. When I moved into this place I changed as it was brand new and really nice. Plus I had more space to put stuff. When my MH was bad during the last five years, my kitchen would get messy. Messy kitchen shows my mood. I’ve had to push myself to keep my house clean and it has become a habit from doing it all the time.

Im more of a morning person if I get up when I wake up. I have to start straight away or I lose the ‘get up and go’ Sometimes being productive is hard but I have learnt that I can push myself through it. But I have also learnt that I feel like I have achieved something when it’s done. Usually I can see that I have done stuff. That’s why I struggled with my self-care day, I had noting to show for it! My GP said I had to do at least one thing every morning when I go up. It has worked.

I had to prep the meals as I need food for work. I didn’t have a choice. This week I made curried sausages and fettuccine carbonara. They arent exciting as I cooked the sausages and chucked them in a packet mix! 20 minutes and done. The fettuccine takes me 10 minutes to cook. I can’t cook, except the fettuccine, so everything is just packets or jars.

That sounds like a lot, especially being behind. That wreaks havoc with your ADHD! If only things were easier.

The cold towels have to go on their belly as that’s where they cool down the quickest. A vet told us to do this years ago with one of mums dogs. Plus that’s what the vet did first when Pix nearly died.

Hey @tyme

Work was ok. I kept myself busy so I did t really have time to think. I want to do the same thing for the next 2 nights, I’m hoping I do. There is no pressure so I’m not being hard on myself. It’s when I do other stuff that I put myself down and my thoughts all float in.

Im glad it was a great day. Sounds so hard. Well done on resetting yourself. I’m guessing all the kids had fun and you had no down time between them and starting work. I can see why you were frazzled. you even had really little ones. I don’t know how you managed to keep control of them all!

I hope you slept well?

It’s suppose to be really hot here for the next 2 days and I’m worried about Pix and mum taking her out in the heat!! It’s suppose to be 41 tomorrow, at least the 43 days are when I have Pix. I’m really looking forward to it! I love it! I’m wondering if maybe it might be a bit hot to mow the lawn but I could do it over a couple of days and be out there more!

Yeah.. 2 more nights. So I won’t be around. But feel free to post anyway and I’ll see it when I get home.