I can’t cope

It is so good @MissGremlin Ive had a shower, cleaned the shower screen and washed my hair. I do half of one of the likes of ironing then my bath was ready. I was going to go back and finish the ironing after my bath but I think I deserve to relax now.

I have more of my diamond art to go than I thought! Hopefully I can get it done this break. It was actually good to sit there and do some while I was waiting for that guy.

I’m going to wash my towels and fold my doona cover in the morning and finish the ironing all before I go to Remembrance Day. Then from about 11:30 or a bit after I’m all yours if you want to do it. It is just literally appointments an a grocery shop until Sunday!! Go me!! I

I’m sorry that you feel out of sorts maybe if you could just eat a little bit.

@Captain24 you definitely deserve to relax now.

The fact that it felt good to sit there and do some is huge. Hopefully you're able to get it done while you're on break.

That sounds like a good plan. I'll probably be available a bit after lunch as I highly doubt routine will happen tomorrow anyway. I have my support worker at 11am.

I managed a little bit. I just want to be in bed and not doing anything but I know that's not a good idea.

I’m just laying on my bed cooling down. Then I’ll have to dry my hair @MissGremlin

I haven’t wanted to do it and the thought of trying made me want to throw it on the floor. I had nothing else to do while I waited. So I thought that was the easiest. It was good but not the same. I think I have a little way to go but it is progress.

That sounds good. If my aunty and uncle run into us there we will probably talk for a while. Then I have to call into mums and pick up the food I left for tonight and the leads. That way I can try and walk them Thursday morning and see how it feels before I go to the physio.

I did ok with it today. It hurt especially with doing the floors and changing the bed linen but I did sleep between those so I rested. I got in and out of the bath easy enough. I didn’t think I would. It’s a big bath! I did also take pharmacy only pain relief as well at the 6 hour mark from the last one. At the moment I’m on 32 tablets a day! That sounds really bad and concerning!

Something is better than nothing.

Is it to risky to be in bed.

@Captain24 it's still progress. Hopefully it will start feeling better when you're able to do it again.

I'm struggling to focus to be able to reply so I'm sorry if this is all over the place, my brain has really gone to mush 😞.

I'd imagine it would still be sore but it's good that getting in and out of the bath was ok. Its definitely alot of medication but right now it's necessary and that's ok.

I think it really is at the moment, my thoughts are in a really dark place and I'm worried about how tonight is going to go. I'm so exhausted but the fear of having nightmares is preventing me from sleeping, then that temptation is there just so that I can sleep. But tonight is feeling more than just wanting to sleep.

I'm safe at the moment. I was feeling lazy hearing everything you've done today so I did my dishes, cleaned the sink, stove, bathroom sink, took out the bins and cleaned the bird cage out. It means that I've already done the bins for tomorrow now, they just have to be put at the end of the driveway. Oh and the washing machine is loaded ready for me to do tomorrow.