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I can’t cope

Captain24Senior Contributor16 June 2022, 9:48 pm AEST

I can’t cope

Hi. I’m new and have never been in anything like this before.
I’m really struggling with depression at the moment and just need a place to vent.
there is no reason as to why I feel this way. I just hate myself and feel like I’m an unworthy and useless person. I don’t have a partner or many friends. I feel like I keep pushing them away when I’m down. I’m just not worthy of them. I hate life and just wish I would go to sleep and not wake up. I feel so much emotional pain inside but numb at the same time. None of this makes any sense but it just how I feel.

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Captain24Senior Contributor25 Feb 2025, 3:50 pm AEDT

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I just need gentle @Ru-bee.

Yeah.. she is extremely concerned. She said that if I need an appointment before our next one, that is three weeks away, she would make time for me. At this stage I may need it. It’ll just mean calling in sick for work. Im trying to save my sick leave to go to hospital in August.

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Ru-beeModerator25 Feb 2025, 4:02 pm AEDT

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I'm glad to hear that she's giving you that option to see her sooner if you need @Captain24

I know it can be really frustrating to use some leave when you're trying to let it build and be used at a specific time, but please give yourself permission to take the day if you do need it in the next 3 weeks

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Captain24Senior Contributor25 Feb 2025, 4:22 pm AEDT

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I’ll just have to see @Ru-bee. I kinda need to worry about the next 5 minutes. I can’t look to far into the future.

The first thing she said to me was ‘what is going on behind that fake smile’ she knows me pretty well.

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Ru-beeModerator25 Feb 2025, 4:28 pm AEDT

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It definitely sounds like she does know you well @Captain24

What can we do here to help you get through the next 5 minutes?

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Captain24Senior Contributor25 Feb 2025, 4:55 pm AEDT

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I don’t know what it’s going to take @Ru-bee. It’s left me feeling open, vulnerable, raw and miserable. Also being so open on here has been hard

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Ru-beeModerator25 Feb 2025, 5:03 pm AEDT

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I understand @Captain24 and again, I'm really proud of you for being so vulnerable in coming here to talk about it. I hope you're feeling like this connection is helpful, but remember if you need to take a break, if being here is feeling too much, that's okay. We're always here when you're ready

I did want to let you know that I'm unfortunately heading off early today. @rav3n is here, and I'll be back on tomorrow morning.

I'm really glad that I was able to talk to you today and I hope I'll see you here soon

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Captain24Senior Contributor25 Feb 2025, 5:06 pm AEDT

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Thank you for being understanding @Ru-bee Thanks for your support today, I’m not sure I deserved it though.

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rav3nSenior Contributor25 Feb 2025, 5:12 pm AEDT

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hiya @Captain24 !! just read some of your recent posts, i can hear that things have been a bit overwhelming post-psych appointment. it can be heavy with all those mixed feelings floating around, i'm sitting with you 💙

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Captain24Senior Contributor25 Feb 2025, 5:30 pm AEDT

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Hey @rav3n

Ive been very open on here today and I said I wouldn’t do it anymore and that I’d only come on when certain mods were on. Those ones know what has been going on for the last few weeks. I’m so scared of getting into trouble on here or doing the wrong thing. I’ve lost all confidence in myself

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rav3nSenior Contributor25 Feb 2025, 5:50 pm AEDT

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@Captain24 i'm so sorry to here that you've lost your confidence, and i'm really proud of you for doing your best to reach out. that's totally fine if you're more comfy reaching out to certain mods, there's no pressure to chat w me at all - i definitely don't want to make you feel more scared!

just know that i'm just a tag away if you change your mind - and ofc i'd NEVER judge you.

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