I can’t cope

Oh dear! That's no good. So what are you going to do with the tree? Leave it? Get someone to get rid of it? Is it on their property or does council have to deal with it?

I was thinking about you and your back. How'd you go with your back and work?

Hope you are okay @Captain24

We have to get rid of it. It’s in their yard. @tyme

Work is really hurting my back but I keep going so that’s good. It hurts to walk. I just have tonight and then I’m off until Friday!

Your back must be battered and bruised now - internally.... @Captain24 Please be careful when you go to work tonight.

TW: Physical vs emotional pain

Im sure im doing damage to it but all I have to focus on is 12.5 hrs of work and then it’s done. @tyme

I get what you’re saying. At least with physical pain there is a reason and it heals unlike emotional pain. I find physical pain worse’s my MH but at the same time it helps limit my SH a little because there is already pain but you just can’t see it.

Yep... I get that. That's what it was like for me. Physical pain took my mind away from SH because I was already in pain @Captain24 ...

Our brains are weird... And yes, physical pain can certainly worsen one's mental health. For me, having a fever makes me really upset.

Whatever it is, I just hope it works out for you. Do you have hydro pool new you? Or you may need a day at the beach and just stay in the water to heal your back....

Hey @Jynx

So today is the 25th and I’m thinking of you. I want to wish you the happiest of birthdays!!!

I hope you get up to lots of shenanigans ones you can tell me about and ones you can’t! 😜

I jumped on here to post without either of you on!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

I’m scared to post on here without my safety net.

I just had a psych appointment and she wants me to go to hospital. I don’t have the leave though.

Hi @Captain24

Did you let your psych know about the lack of leave?

How are you feeling about it all?

Hey @Ru-bee

Thank you for responding, please know how scared I am being in here at the moment. I’m shaking while I’m typing.

I told her about the leave, her response was that I won’t need leave if I unalive myself.

It was pretty confronting. I am scared of where I’m headed.

I'm glad that you're here @Captain24 if there's anything I can do to make you feel safe please let me know. I also want to acknowledge how brave it is to be here despite your fear

That would have been very confronting to hear, but I imagine this statement would have been made over very real concern for you. Are you feeling safe at the moment?