I can’t cope

Thanks @rav3n.

Its a struggle

@Captain24 conquer or...gently work through? Language matters, and one of those options sounds a lot harder than the other! Just sayin 😉

Hmm maybe you can talk to her about the SP as well? You could introduce a specific section for coping tools and self-soothing strategies that are super low energy. Or ask if she can help you figure out some new ones to add in, or alternatives, you know just stuff like if the main section says do 10 minutes of mindfulness, this one might say do 2 minutes - makes it more approachable! If your SP itself has potentially become a source of shame, then no wonder you don't wanna use it!!

That is okay that you can't be there for her. Imagine for a moment your roles were reversed, would you be mad at her for prioritising her own needs? If the guilt is super intense, you could flick a message that just says like, you do really want to be there for her, but because you've got stuff you're dealing with too, you wouldn't be able to be there in the way she deserves, and maybe point her towards a crisis service or something so she knows she still can talk it through with someone if needed.

Or don't do that, conserve every ounce of energy you have, and message her later. Also valid.

Am I a failure? @Jynx.

Im sitting here just crying. Ashamed of what has happened and what I want to happen.

Maybe we can make my SP easier. But if you look at it it’s not that hard.

Im falling and im falling fast.

@Captain24 if your SP isn't working for you hun, it just means it needs to be altered to better suit your needs, not that you're a failure for being unable to adhere to it. It's not a universal instruction guide or a rigid and unchangeable document you must follow or else.

Try to take some deep breaths, if the sobs aren't getting in the way. I know, I know, I feel like a broken record too. But 60 seconds of measured breathing sends information to our brain that we are safe, we are okay.

I am about to log off hun - do you think it's time to call or reach out to a crisis chat?

I'll stick around till you respond @Captain24 hun, don't worry 💜

You’ve probably gone now @Jynx

But thank you.

Im going to go to bed and try and get some sleep before I have to get up for work.

@Captain24 gladness, I wanted to just make sure that you were gonna be okay!! Okay now I'm going to bed for realsies!! Hope you get some rest tonight hun, see you tomorrow. Give your puppies a cuddle from me 🫂💜

Hey @Captain24 how'd you go last night, get off to sleep okay? How's your Tuesday going poppet?

Hey @Jynx

I just got home from work.

It took a while for me to calm down enough to go to sleep. I woke up really tired. I’ve been tired all day. It hasn’t helped me any.

I am just as distressed as last night. I was really stupid in my drive home from work. I’m doing really risky stuff.

Im sorry.