I can’t cope

I should ask a nurse but I don’t really know the ones that are on @RiverSeal

They are all there to support you but maybe ask the nurse that is assigned to you for their shift. Is that information on a whiteboard somewhere near the Nurse's Station @Captain24? RiverSeal

No one is assigned @RiverSeal. I don’t feel comfortable with any of them. I’m so f’ed up. I’m in so much pain. I hate myself.

@Captain24 do you think that is the best option for you to take while you are in hospital? The nurses are there to support you and can't treat you if they don't know anything is wrong. How would you feel about going up to the Nurse's Station and letting them know you are in pain? You can let me know how it went afterwards if you want. RiverSeal

I went out for a little while with a friend. @RiverSeal. We walked along the beach and just chatted. It was a little reprieve from myself. The nurse and facilitator weren’t sure if I was ok to leave. But I told them I wouldn’t be alone.

I do have a nurse on this afternoon that I can talk to. So hopefully that will help. I’ve gone from a 2 up to a 3 at the moment. But I’m filled with dread about being back in here. I just have to get over myself.

That's nice you could go for a walk @Captain24 .

Is that with someone there?

Hope it helped a little. I can hear how getting out in nature can help.

It was good @tyme. I met her last time I was in here.

I’ve asked for extra check ins but they are short staffed so I don’t know if it will happen.

She did give me a way to leave my psych though. She said I could say that I psych in here needs to work with me on things that have happened in here.

One of the girls in here just said if I want to stay in group I need to be more present. That hurt a lot. I don’t think she meant it to come out the way it did.

I’ve f’ed up. The psych I was talking to

last night was concerned about me. She made me cry again, I told her about my thoughts about SH and passive SI. I said I really needed a smoke and she said if that’s what i need to do to get through safely then so be it. So I’ve started. I’m stupid.

Do you think you are trying to do everything all at once and maybe the smoking issue can be for later @Captain24 ?

What do you think?

Please don't be so hard on yourself, hun. It's a lot for anyone.

I don’t know what I’m doing @tyme. I feel like I have made a mess of everything.

My GP can help with smoking when I get back. I’m back to the beginning again. I’ll try and be careful with it.

I have 2 people in here that are leaning on me too. I cried last night because I couldn’t do something for someone and the psych said that I can’t fill from an empty cup. I need to take that on board and I am. So I am listening.

I don’t know how much you have read but this psych is possibly my new psych it’ll all just have to be Telehealth

Very true. Remember you are in there for yourself. You aren't there to 'fix' others. That is one KEY thing you have to get from an inpatient clinic.

As for your psych, are you okay with telehealth? I somehow prefer it. @Captain24