I can’t cope

I know it’s all about me, I just happened to be there when one of the girls found out her pup was missing and then as things change. He has had an absolute miracle recovery, still a long way to go but I think I can step away now @tyme. I just happened to be in the right (maybe wrong) time.

One of my friends from before has come in in a bad way. I only see her at meal times as she is usually in her room.

I like in person but I'm happy with Telehealth as I have that personal connection already. If that makes sense.

I feel sick and scared as to how this is going

Hey @Captain24 ,

Let is be as it would be. I'm wondering if the fear will hinder your recovery? That is, is all your energy going into fearing so that you can't focus on recovery?

I really don't know.

I'm glad to hear you feel you can sort of step away from the other person.

Remember, it's about YOU.

I’m sitting outside full of dress about going back in. Inside I have to face everything out here I can block it out.

Smoking helps with my breathing and can calm me down slightly. I know it’s so wrong and I’m stupid for caving.

@Captain24 Whatever you can do to calm yourself and ground yourself is perfectly okay; even if it's having a smoke. It's great that you've taken yourself outside. I always find being outside helps me when my head is a bit whirly.

The facilitator gave me a fidget ring for while I’m in group. @Former-Member.

A friend from last time that I was in hospital has just come in so I had an enjoyable lunch which felt good. I just can’t hold onto it.

@Captain24 Do you find that the fidget ring works well? I randomly found a spikey fidget ring on the ground a few months ago, and it's really grounding.

Glad that you had a good lunch. The small things are so important! Are there any other "small" things that you can think of or notice that give you some comfort today? One of mine is that some of my flowers are blooming again, and the colour is super vibrant.

There is another person that has come in today. We were here together last time. @Former-Member. It feels nice having familiar faces.

The ring was great. I need to get one. It did keep me grounded for the group. I didn’t disassociate today.

Im now in my room. Today was a lot. It was too much.

The flowers look amazing

@Captain24 You're right; it can be so good to have a familiar face, especially when things feel chaotic.

I'm so glad the ring helped today! Sensory stuff is so cool. It's really good to find the sensory things that work for you. For a lot of people who disassociate, a really strong sensory experience can be helpful in keeping them present. I've found that holding a block of ice or running my hands under cold water can work well.

Good job getting through the day though. We definitely don't recognise how hard that can be sometimes.

I like to share my little joys 😊🌺

Love your photo @Former-Member 😊 of your flowers

Hugs and hello @Captain24

I just had a new Lego arrive. It looks pretty cool but instead of doing it I’m just lying in my bed. What a failure. I’m incapable of helping myself. I hate me. I hate what I’ve become. I hate what I’m doing. I hate that I’m here. I hate that I’m not getting any better.