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I can’t cope

Captain24Senior Contributor16 June 2022, 9:48 pm AEST

I can’t cope

Hi. I’m new and have never been in anything like this before.
I’m really struggling with depression at the moment and just need a place to vent.
there is no reason as to why I feel this way. I just hate myself and feel like I’m an unworthy and useless person. I don’t have a partner or many friends. I feel like I keep pushing them away when I’m down. I’m just not worthy of them. I hate life and just wish I would go to sleep and not wake up. I feel so much emotional pain inside but numb at the same time. None of this makes any sense but it just how I feel.

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NatureLoverSenior Contributor30 Sept 2022, 7:45 am AEST

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@Captain24 wrote:
Thanks @NatureLover . Apparently my GP or nurse will ring me, hopefully with some help, either today or tomorrow. I’ll be asleep both days but I’ll leave my phone on just in case.

Hi @Captain24 , did your GP or nurse ring yesterday?

Thinking of you...

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Captain24Senior Contributor30 Sept 2022, 1:51 pm AEST

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No one has called @NatureLover

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Captain24Senior Contributor30 Sept 2022, 2:36 pm AEST

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I just rang my nurse and the GP hasn’t rung. I did have a good chat though and she said I sounded a little better.

I had a fantastic night at work and had the confidence to speak up when I needed to. That’s a big step forward for me at the moment. I also explained to my current boss that I am struggling with my MH and that’s why I’ve been unreliable lately. I didn’t go into any detail though. He was quite supportive.

Today I’m feeling agitated and anxious as I have a work function that I am going to tonight. That is a massive step for me as I have social phobia in my ‘normal’ moments and at the moment it is way out of control. I can’t even hold a conversation. I’m going with a friend as I couldn’t go on my own and we are actually meeting up an hr before to catch up. I think it’s the catch up that has lifted my spirits a little.

I also reached the optimum dose of the mood stabilisers on Tuesday so that maybe helping.

I don’t feel as defeated and hopeless today and I feel safer than I have in a while. My only hope is that I can hold onto it and not fall back into a heap when tonight’s catch up is over.

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BowSenior Contributor30 Sept 2022, 2:47 pm AEST

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This sounds all positive @Captain24 which is good!

So good that you felt able to speak with your boss about your current mh struggles! That is so brave!

glad that you are meeting up with a friend before going to your work function tonight. Can you set yourself just small goals? Even just having one conversation with one person? And go with questions to ask, so that you feel a little more prepared? I’m sure you will be fine, and that it won’t be as bad as you expect it to be! Wishing you all the best and all the positive vibes your way!

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Captain24Senior Contributor30 Sept 2022, 4:23 pm AEST