Trying makes it worse

Right @TAB that's no good. Catastrophising perhaps? It's difficult for me to relate because obviously I'm not having surgery! It's one of those things, that unless you are going through it - is difficult to imagine how the other person feels. Probably partly because it's not an everyday thing.

Do you know how many nights you will stay in hospital for? The good thing I read on Google is that it's a fairly painless procedure. It's good that it is a common one too. The doctors will be very experienced in what they are doing.

If you have lumps in your thyroid that are extremely overdue to be removed - then this is the smartest, & safest course of action. It's lots for your head to deal with. Try to do things you enjoy over the next few days. 5 mins mindfully staring out the window, or whatever you find peace in✌️

You might have found a clever loop hole living in ambiguous Kmart pj's.

@EternalFlower Yes much quieter now. I live at the end of a court. There are shops, supermarket, chemist and doctor 5 mins away. I have planted out the court and others have joined in, so there are garden beds around. There is a canal close by and a small park. I saw a mother duck and bubs this month. The birdlife has improved since i have been here. (20 years) I can often hear birdsong. I can sometimes hear freight trains rumbling through the night. The blocks are really small, more like units, (only 2 metres out the back) which suits me, as less to maintain... ha ha ... with all my gardening expanding beyond the limits of my property, I give myself plenty of work, but somehow it is worth it, as it keeps me physically active and engaged, gets me some Vit D and the place looks great and is a conversation topic. The area did not have a good reputation 20-30 years ago, but is actually a really good place to live now. I feel lucky.

Yes, I know the one @EternalFlower Leslie Jordan Rip he was in coven & 2 others.

Now, I won't ask how are you anymore! It's such a silly question. Watching the English reality shows -they say - You alright? And then the other person replies, 'yeh, you alright'. I thought it sounded so funny - better than how are you anyway.

I might look into getting pj's from Kmart too! They sound fun It will be a good luck TAB surgery purchase. @Appleblossom are you in?

@Appleblossom so nice to read the connection to nature...and the mother duck and bubs!! That's a special sight.

It is tricky isn't it matching the place u live, feeling cosy and safe. Peace is hard to find. That's nice that u have amenities close, it can make it easier having things accessible.

I have a gp I see who is maybe 5 minute walk from my home. Still, I don't like the walk because of the density, very busy and people. I feel exposed.

@TAB @maddison that is funny re kmart pjs, life hack to celebrate!! So joy kmart pyjamas. I have been watching this plus size YouTube creator who films "kmart hauls" -basically herself shopping in kmart for size 20 outfits and home goods for her young family. She tries everything on and makes me consider items I normally wouldn't...

I used to buy online due to social anxiety and have started now going back to stores.

Hope ur day was OK @maddison ? Don't mind at all re "how are u"....my psych is just extremely awkward and I never know what to say. Last week I turned it around and asked him to start the session...,did he have anything to bring up? He stumbled and couldn't think of what to say. I said that's how I feel, put on the spot! I don't know how or where to start when he says that.

Sending hugs x

Yes pro bono til decide what to do then charge @EternalFlower

Thanks @EternalFlower

No worries @TAB hope u have a good night

Watching 32?

@Appleblossom Ur garden sounds lovely. Very private, calm home ? Do u have neighbours or not many? I know it's desirable to live in little cul de sac type places, dead-end streets.

@maddison I hope ur cloud drawing is soothing...it's OK if u can't talk about something here we can talk about anything or nothing or everything lovely ♥

I like how u said u like having less surface conversations, I think it's nice when ppl can talk deeply about life etc. It is a funny adventure and people are mysterious!! I spend so much time wandering why ppl behave as they do. I always wander what they are thinking and pick up on "vibes."

Today was the first time I ever saw my therapists/psychs full face and it was so weird and also I feel weird about my face!! I still feel uncomfortable. I felt his face was a whole new man, and it really made me feel weird. What an odd situation that I have met with this man for 2 years both of us masked, and now I'm sitting in a room with him unmasked and it's like a different man and I feel scared!!! Therapy in 2022...so odd...

Do you mean world movies re ch32 ? @EternalFlower just lying in bed may get up

Yep sorry meant ch32 @TAB