Trying makes it worse

Hi @maddison I've been watching his clips on loop in hospital ! And today I watched why am I anxious ..lol ...my favourite is "red flags" and "human interaction is so easy"

How was today? Hope Ur feeling OK and finding goodness and peace

It's hectic in hospital now after a weird two days. I felt a bit better yesterday but today I had leave from hospital and Ingot too anxious about it...I think I've had enough of hospital although don't want to go home and I'm thinking into the future, like I didn't sleep well here and how will I settle back home, or even contemplate going to work, which I somehow feel if I'm on no sleep everyone will see through me all that I've been thru, I'm feeling small and worried.

It's hard to be I hopsital, it's nice to be around ppl who get it, but it's such a mixed bag.

Hi everyone

I'm discharging tomorrow morning and then seeing my psych

It's been hard q bit getting ready to go home

My favourite show is out season 2 and I'm watching that tonight, and rugging up here.

I have gotten used to having nurses around to talk to, they are so wonderful and caring. I didn't realise how much I got used to it, I'm very lonely and isolated in my life and have trouble with relationships,

My friends are very busy and hectic and my depression has put me I guess behind them. I feel left behind.

I really benefited in hospital and am scared to return home.

How are u all? X

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@Former-Member @maddison @tyme @wellwellwellnez

I tried finding others who've written here but maybe they have left the forum? X

Hi @EternalFlower

Good luck with discharge tomorrow. I hope everything goes smoothly for you.

I understand what you mean about feeling behind. I feel very much that way. I do my best not to let it get me down. Occasionally I have the epiphany that I am not in competition with anyone. It is great feeling to really know that I am only one, racing myself! Currently, tonight, I am in a space where I have forgotten that.... Finding connection with others is truly difficult.

I am a little bit curious about what your favourite show is🤔 Anyway enjoy it. TV is great!

I'm not sure what I'm watching tonight.

It is wonderful to hear that the nurses were so lovely to you. Maybe try to hold on to that. I know it is difficult readjusting. You will be ok💙💜💚

(I have trouble tagging ppl too - not sure why)

I have been trying desperately to get psych evaluation for last couple months with GP help. I might be making some headway - appt. have another appointment with GP tomorrow. My anxiety and depression have been lingering way more than usual. I'm researching the possibility that I've been "under-diagnosed". It is very hard to get psych at moment due to covid. I am in my mid 40s - it will be strange to get new diagnosis now!

@EternalFlower ♥️🧚‍

good luck today @EternalFlower

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Hello ! I was trying to tag @chibam @NatureLover @Scream58 ...hi.

Hi @maddison how was Ur day? It went well today with psych

he said he can admit me to hospital any time I need...and he is just so nice.

I caught up with a peer worker today and she was also lovely. I think peer support is crucial

I wanted to explore more about what you wrote so will have a think...

I feel attached to my therapist or more attached to hope of recovery

Hi @maddison how did Ur day go, did u find a nice show to watch?

I'm watching "russian doll" on netflix which I like.

I also watched pam and tommy on Disney plus, and found it funny and entertaining.

Discharged early morning than straight to my psych appt...and had follow up peer support. They call u and check in, and and she also texted me after..it was supportive.

I've had an evaluation with a psych, it was not what I expected! Hope u can make headway

It is definitely hard to get diagnosed and confronting. I'm feeling that too. Sending hugs

I'm back home after a time in hospital

I'm completely overwhelmed and at a loss of how to be at home

I saw my therapist today, Dr Lovely, who I see semi regularly for counselling and meds.

He's a fairly open personality and sometimes talks about himself, he has difficult parents

He told me the diff between his parents and mine is that mine have more power and authority over me, as I was their only girl, and they had sexist attitudes etc and also he lives in a diff state to them, giving them less power.

I've learnt recently about

The Power Threat Meaning Framework, maybe I'll bring it to him next session

I sometimes bring things to talk about or write stuff down, but today I told myself if I even get there and am on time and dressed showered and present, this is enough,

I hoped he would've received the handover notes from ny hospital but he hadn't yet which made it a bit less easy for me to recount what had happened there

He was not involved in my admission this time but could be next time.

Hospital was ok 8/10 miss it a bit, unpacking is triggering etc...

Hi @maddison @jazz @tyme @wellwellwellnez

I was wondering what show you meant and then I just found out that Russian Doll released a second season. It's Russian Doll, right? I know it is. First season was masterpiece stuff.

Where the heck are they going to take it though? Essentially they're attempting a sequel to a Groundhog Day format. Can that even be done? I'm riveted already.

Hi @wellwellwellnez how are u doing ?

I'm very terrified of spoilers so will stick to last season but yes..so amazing. I'm on episode 3 and watched season 1 again to get back into it, actually while in hppsital. I find it super riveting. It all dropped...I did have some fear along what u said, if they would be kind of stuck and not have anywhere to go, but I think it was pitched originally as 3 seasons and they have more to say.....☺

Hi @EternalFlower

I'm sorry to hear you are feeling overwhelmed in returning home. Hang in there👍

I can only reflect on my own experience with my friend when he returns from hospital & I suspect he feels the same way. I try to make the transition as easy as possible, by giving him space& not putting usual demands on him. It does take few days before he begins to feel settled and 'remembers' the routine of being at home. I think he goes through enormous anxiety in the transition. I find he is usually withdrawn & trust between us needs to be rebuilt. Along with that, he is bringing all the energies & experiences of hospital with him, those that I did not share. There is a space between us, or between him & his home that needs to be filled & reestablished. It is a process!

I am happy for you that you have so many supports in place. Be sure to use them as much as you need. I think for my friend (& me) they act as a great bridge between hospital & home as things adjust.

You have given be a little bit of insight re 'unpacking is triggering' comment. I have noticed this seems a very serious, deliberate event.

Hope you enjoying Russian Dolls. I am interested, it sounds really good!! Might have to get Netflix 🙂🤔

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