Trying makes it worse

Hi @TAB sorry that happened although a few years ago

I can understand why u don't feel a desire to go out at night

Have only recently started leaving home at night.

getting darker bit later as well.

Was called in to work this morning at 7 30am

Woke me up and called many times. So hence I'm awake

I just felt a bit silly that something minor could have an effect like that @EternalFlower

I didn't know you worked?

Hi @TAB it affects us imo one way or the other either we ignore it but it's still there

Don't think it's silly at all

I work casually, and not a lot.

I either get a million shifts or none.

Today I got a call at 7 and 7 15 asking me to work but I ignored,

yeah that's not good re no notice, I've been in that situation before, people expecting me to be sitting by the phone , then dont get work for months sometimes @EternalFlower

I havent worked much this year. not motivated, plus knee broke down a few times

Hello @EternalFlower @TAB @Appleblossom @Former-Member @Shaz51

You guys really are the BEST. Thankyou so much for all your support & kind words❤️

My mind has been a little spaced out over the last few days & I haven't been on the forums.

Checking in now, & catching up reading all the comments just makes me feel so accepted.

@Former-Member welcome to the forums!! Thankyou for your supportive & warm first post to me💜 I loved how you explained your opinions of SANE & how it can be used, & then you supported the way I reached out. It made me feel confident & safe. Im looking forward to interacting with you. I love all animals. Currently 'my family' is feline 😄🐈 Do you have any pets, or fun interests? I really like your name! Mainly because I have been practising my art skills & I find sunset/sea the most fun & easy, given that I cannot draw!

@EternalFlower I loved your comment "It it is ok and acceptable and loved to feel not ok here, we can help each other"

It's when I read these types of reinforcing comments, that I feel so much safer, & secure within my self. Thankyou for sharing your strength with me, now & in the past. You are fabulous🌸

I have watched all the AHS! Did you watch the recent one with McAuley Culkin? Wow, he was so different from Home Alone days.....thank goodness! Haha!

Hope you are ok💗

@TAB@Appleblossom thankyou again. It really means heaps to me to have genuine support👍 Interesting re: middling to fair. It makes lots more sense. I feel slightly smarter🤔

Yes, I don't live in a nice neighbourhood. I would not dare walk around here after dark. At times, I have forgotten to bring the bins in. I feel like my senses are on high alert, simply going to the nature strip at night!

It's also perhaps part of the reason, I prefer living with my friend. Even though, sometimes things can get so bad & I know that it's damaging for my mental health.

It is not his fault.

His mind can play tricks & his delusions will tell him that I'm the enemy. It can be frightening. This is fairly rare occurrence, & I can almost always find a way to connect with the 'real him .' It can feel overwhelming at times. Mostly, when too many bad things happen at one time (like covid!!)

I have seriously questioned living on my own & whether or not that is best thing for my own mental health.

I believe there are benefits & negatives to both.

I know, for me, I feel more safe living with someone. Even if at times, I feel worried here too.

'the least worst option' - I wonder if that has a phrase? @TAB

(PS- I love my friend lots)

Hi @maddison @TAB @Appleblossom @Shaz51 @tyme @N1812345

Hi maddison, thanks for saying that.

Ur doing well taking space as u need and taking care of urseld, it's really hard sometimes to know how to prioritise our health. Anything u do for urself we all support ♥

I just started AHS!! I'm not good with extreme horror, psychologically scary stuff, so my friend recommend Coven, because it's the least scary.

I think next I'll try Freak Show, although I know there's a scary clown.

Any recs? I've seen mainly on a another show recently in a cameo,...wow! So diff

@TAB I'm in that situation, they only call me when desperate it seems, and not a lot of notice. I am on the DSP and can work only limited hours per week and haven't really decided if I want to keep this job.

Look after yourself @maddison 😀

Whatever works @EternalFlower I guess. Someone told me once I shouldn't have been on DES disability employment services as they wanted me to I had worked too much. They looked like that was something they really wanted so I denied it

Thankyou @EternalFlower & you're welcome! Really great advice & wise.

Anything u do for urself we all support ♥

Sounds so simple! I don't know if anyone has ever said this to me before in my life. I'm also returning the support to everyone❤️ (& @Shaz51 - I forgot to say previously, 'thankyou for always being there!')

I think AHS coven is a great start @EternalFlower I really loved the strong female storyline, & diverse actors.

Ahs can be scary, & deal with awful themes! I was ok because I like scary shows, tho it was hard for me to watch at times too!

I couldn't get into freak show. Yes the clown is horrible! Maybe it was the conjoined twins (CGI?) that made me feel weird.

It's probably personal taste, my favourites might be Hotel, Asylum & Cult.

Thx @TAB Will do You too 🎭🌞