FORUMS

Connect with people who understand what you are going through, seek advice and surround yourself with support. We're free, anonymous, and professionally moderated 24/7.

  • 47,612Members
  • 1,358,869Posts
  • 1,400,000Visitors
Welcome and getting started

Trying makes it worse

Trying makes it worse

Hi,

I'm EternalFlower and I've been feeling completely overwhelmed, sad, and pessimistic.

I've tried and been a responsible patient and person, reaching out to various services when I started feeling scarily anxious and suicidal, 2 years back..

My Dr is new, a young guy who regularly admits he's inexperienced, and aside from some good jokes, he actually does very little

I notice how easy it is to blame myself that I don't feel better, a total shame spiral, but I wander if my treatments just are bad....

I wanted to chat and hear anyone and hope I can use this space to help not feel so alone.

Thanks xxx EternalFlower

2606 replies

771 - 780 of 2,606

In response to: Trying makes it worse

Re: Trying makes it worse

@EternalFlower Mental health seems to require that balance between inner and outer worlds.

Personal choice has been one of the good things about NDIS for me. In life, I always had to settle and submit, and found it really difficult to start setting expectations for respect and a job well done and not accepting abuse. It has allowed a big mindset change. I do not take for granted what the services have to offer and always express gratitude, but I was always like that. There are all types out there. Sometimes problems can be just someone having a bad day, but if there continue to be repeats, and we are putting in our best from our own end, then moving on, can be the best thing to do.

I did have reservations about my support co-ordinator for a while but I called her out and she got it, and we get on well now. It really helped me. I am very sensitive and have had few rocky starts with people, but when I can speak up and be heard, then they seem to smooth out.

@EternalFlower With mental health issues, we do need to work on our sensitivity a bit, but also it is a clue about how to handle things, always a delicate path to tread and a work in progress.

Not sure if you are on NDIS, for me it has only been recent. I see it as my due, partly cos of the atrocious way I was treated trying to get help for my son over 25 years, and I worked part time anyway while being physically disabled.

In response to: Trying makes it worse

Re: Trying makes it worse

Hey @maddison, deep breaths. Sitting with you

In response to: Re: Trying makes it worse

Re: Trying makes it worse

In response to: Re: Trying makes it worse

Re: Trying makes it worse

Glad you can breathe deep. It sounds like a big, distressing day. I'm going to send another quick email to check in ❤️

In response to: Re: Trying makes it worse

Re: Trying makes it worse

Oh @maddison how darn scary for you! I'm glad you are okay now. Do you have some support for the rest of the day? Thinking of you ❤️

In response to: Re: Trying makes it worse

Re: Trying makes it worse

Thankyou @hanami I really appreciate that. It was a scary moment. I feel safe & calm now. My supports will have to be my animals for today! That's ok. I have one cat snuggled up on each side of me now❤️

Hi Everyone, apologies for hijacking this thread. I was so panicked & needed to reach out silently here & try to feel safe.

I have been catching up on reading @EternalFlower @TAB @Appleblossom lots of beautiful & kind discussions. Reminds me that lovely people are in the world. 💜

In response to: Re: Trying makes it worse

Re: Trying makes it worse

Hope you are okay now @maddison

In response to: Re: Trying makes it worse

Re: Trying makes it worse

Thankyou @TAB 💙 I'm fine now. A rocky day! Hope things are ok for you.

In response to: Re: Trying makes it worse

Re: Trying makes it worse

Yes fair to muddling thanks @maddison hopefully your problem has sorted itself. Had out of ordinary reading from bloods yest. Eventually realised prob was something I took before going there. Ie wasn't expecting blood test. Not sure why they called me about it tbh dunno

In response to: Re: Trying makes it worse

Re: Trying makes it worse

Hey @maddison,

How are things now?? Are you ok?

xx

771 - 780 of 2,606