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Trying makes it worse

Trying makes it worse

Hi,

I'm EternalFlower and I've been feeling completely overwhelmed, sad, and pessimistic.

I've tried and been a responsible patient and person, reaching out to various services when I started feeling scarily anxious and suicidal, 2 years back..

My Dr is new, a young guy who regularly admits he's inexperienced, and aside from some good jokes, he actually does very little

I notice how easy it is to blame myself that I don't feel better, a total shame spiral, but I wander if my treatments just are bad....

I wanted to chat and hear anyone and hope I can use this space to help not feel so alone.

Thanks xxx EternalFlower

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Hey @EternalFlower . will come back for a chat later tonight.. take care friend.. tns..

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A mango.. What a treat, @EternalFlower . Do you slice bits off it, or do as I do. Eat it out on the lawn

with the hose near by. I'm a. . . shove my face into it , guy. Get more on me, than in me.

So.. you had a little day out and about. well that sounds alright mate. They looking after you in there

@EternalFlower ..

If the tuckers fair, and you're a 7 out of 10, on the peaceful, cruisy scale, then I'd weigh anchor there

as long as you can mate. As well you know, good care is hard to find.

I'm back home and feeling pretty good.

Hey mate.. are you still doing a little bit in your journal. I still remember your 10 Tvs post.

Its good to go back and look at old diary's and journal's. I always think. . What space n place was I in back then. Ties the threads of your days together into the makings of your journey..

You'd be surprised how that may help you one day. And if you share bits of it with those helping you,

well it may give them a more complete picture of the person called Eternal Flower.

Take care mate. thinking of you.. tonys.

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thanks @Dimity love mangoes!

has been clear blue sky today and just wandering around the hospital feeling happy and ready to leave

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@EternalFlower @tonys someone showed me how to cut the side off a mango then score crosscuts before turning it inside out - not sure if that makes sense but makes it easy to eat. Found this explanation https://www.simplyrecipes.com/recipes/how_to_cut_a_mango/

Glad you're feeling good in yourself @EternalFlower and okay about going home. I think you said you've moved - hope the new place feels like home.

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Thanks for that @Dimity . Certainly the way to deal with a mango mate. But, tell me there isn't just something primal about sucking on that big juicy seed, syrup all up your arms n face. Mangoes. . . When you need to hose down after a meal, it must have been good.

Not wonder know one takes me out... Nite Dimity and have a beaut day tomorrow..

Gnite @EternalFlower @Oaktree @Appleblossom @TAB . sleep well.

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And juicy ripe peaches are good too @tonys

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OH @Dimity . . . even better mate.! Your so right. Don't get me started on peaches.

What a sticky pair of kids we are Dimity.. What's life without a bit of fun hey.. Enjoy the eve mate

tonys.. 😋

Hi @EternalFlower .. You OK mate..

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Hi @EternalFlower Glad to hear your new clogs are making you feel good! What colour are they?

I'm a support worker in my paid job, what do you look for in a good one?

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I don't like any of my support workers really @Jasper_123 it's not so helpful having them

Usually they push me to do things I don't wanna do and try book me in for things so they can get paid if and when i cancel

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Hugs @EternalFlower . Hope you are okay.

We're around if you need a chat.

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