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Trying makes it worse

Trying makes it worse

Hi,

I'm EternalFlower and I've been feeling completely overwhelmed, sad, and pessimistic.

I've tried and been a responsible patient and person, reaching out to various services when I started feeling scarily anxious and suicidal, 2 years back..

My Dr is new, a young guy who regularly admits he's inexperienced, and aside from some good jokes, he actually does very little

I notice how easy it is to blame myself that I don't feel better, a total shame spiral, but I wander if my treatments just are bad....

I wanted to chat and hear anyone and hope I can use this space to help not feel so alone.

Thanks xxx EternalFlower

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i missed the Barbie reference @Appleblossom @TAB

i am in hospital atm

it is... well... amazing

i feel safe and rested and life is coming ok in a funny way

@Oaktree @Dimity

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@EternalFlower

I am glad that you are feeling safe. Tonys was watching the Barbie movie one night and I think he enjoyed it.
Thank you for tagging me here.

My day has been a bit boring. Didn’t do much today but a friend of mine in America had her baby. Waiting for details. They are telling their kids first.

Meggle

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Glad you are okay @EternalFlower

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Glad you're resting in safe haven @EternalFlower

I hope the feeling carries forward

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thanks @Oaktree congrats for ur friend... thats lovely

thank u @Dimity @TAB it is safe so far but very quiet here atm

the food is nice and there are some familiar faces who seems lovely to talk to - i know one woman from another stay

i have made up a new idenity here in a way - i'm finding a new, safe way to be here

letting go of anything from the past

they mostly leave you alone but if you ask for help they are very responsive

the Dr was meant to come today and see me but they told me he is sick so it is tomorrow

okay then 🙂

i can't do much about that but luckily the nurses are good to talk to as well

we have some classes to attend and also there is stuff to do nearby yet i mostly stay indoors so far

i just move from room to room and get some breaks in my own space

chilling in my room and having naps

fine life really

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Hi @EternalFlower . Sounds like your receiving some care in a good place. I've missed a lot of posts

I'm sorry to say. My inbox has been a bit unreliable. I see Tab finally got his air-conditioning sorted. Poor bugger. I nag him to death, but it works. . . LoL

How long do you think your stay will be @EternalFlower .. If it feels peaceful there' then what's the

the rush, hey mate. I know you constantly wrestle with tough choices my friend. Give them the best chance by taking your time with them. Thinking of you Eternal. tonys

@Oaktree Nice news. I can tell, you just want to give that baby a good cuddle don't you.

Brings out the mum in you, news like that. How's the tripod and You Tube

project going. Meggle Spielberg, has a ring to it don't you think.

best wishes Meggle. tonys

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thanks @tonys i am glad you're here as i was thinking about you!

the level of care is great i can get things off my chest here, read some Tim Winton, chill out, some ladies knit - not so much my thing but its a nice conversation starter and there is a good option to either hang out and relax and take care or socialise - and dip and out so to speak - when i feel like it. i have a nice space and view

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hello @tonys @Dimity @TAB @Oaktree @Appleblossom sending new week light and goodness for everyone and hope it's been a great day

so tired and sleepy here after getting some leave from hospital and running around on trams

it was very sunny and bright but i caught some nice nature on the way

bought a coke and a mango and came back

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take care @EternalFlower thanks for taking time out to tag me on your journeys ...😊

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Nature coke & mango... well done @EternalFlower . Good choices for a summer day.

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