Trying makes it worse

Hi @Appleblossom

Yes you are right, I am a nature girl. I feel at home in the forest.

@EternalFlower For a long time I fought against the local mental health clinic. They wanted to fill my life with groups and appointments. I just wanted to live a normal life. I don’t want my life to be about my illness. I am doing really well now! Doing things my way. I have a really great support worker whom I like and get on well with. I go on outings with her. It stops me from isolating at home. She is almost like a friend and I am comfortable with her. I hope you find people to work with that you can feel comfortable with too.

Meggle

Hello all

I am in the ED again

I was so anxious and sh

My friend makes little judgey comments that because I've changed so much like new catchment area new Dr I have no one who knows me well...ie the ed has offered me a psych drug I am allergic to. I was sad they didn't know this but it's a new hkpsitla but yes I an annidiot for moving and yes I desefvd all this deserve to die

But it wasn't my choice all this change it isn't my fault it isn't just a bad move I was trying my best

Hi @EternalFlower

You don’t deserve to die. People are allowed to move. Just be kind to yourself. You will be ok. Just speak up and tell them that you are allergic. Sending you warm wishes and strength!

Meggle

Hi all @Appleblossom @tonys @Sophia1 I don't want to trigger anyone but having such a bad time and in the ED

I have ruined so much

I know it

Stuff won't and can't work and it's just cycles of admissions and help seeking with no one around who cares.

My friend Elle was my emergency contact and when inwas last in hospital she just disappeared tor three weeks not a call not a text.

This is who I am I have no one solid.

I will never

I am just going to get kicked around

The nurses are neglecting me completely overnight not even a hello

Well said @Oaktree

It is weird here the night nurses are weird.

I am tired but fighting asleep.

Keep loving nature, is it Ur free spirit, a reflection of?

I am feeling sad and neglected here in the hospital

@moderator @tyme @Owlunar2 @tonys @Appleblossom @TAB

I hope things get better for you @EternalFlower

Hi @EternalFlower

I'm sorry this is happening to you - it's really rough - I hear you

You are a sensible and sensitive person - you do not deserve to die - you do deserve the attention you need - it's no one's fault when they are ill - it happens - alas

You know not to take medication you are allergic to - or any thing you are concerned about - the first contraindication is patient refusal - this might be frustrating for the medical staff - but you have that right

I want to check as much as I can on line before I submit - and I get it - it's really hard and a lonely place to be - we have that right though

I hope things improve today - we can only hope

Best wishes

Owlunar

@Owlunar2

You are indeed a wise owl!

Love you Mumma Bear

@EternalFlower

I just think I hear my soul best when I am alone in the forest. I love to hear the birds sing when waking up too. So many things about it are lovely. I really wanted to do an end to end on the Bibbulman track but problem is that as I get older it will be getting harder. May have missed the opportunity. I did 3 weeks once. Walked from Kalamunda to Collie.

I really hope you will be able to find some help today. Thinking of you! Please look after yourself. Sleeping is probably helpful but it tends to be difficult in ED.

Meggle

@EternalFlower I am sorry to hear you are in ED. I agree with the others. You deserve to live. Little judgy comments are hard. Are they friend or foe? Not sure all behind your decision to move. Its done now when you get home make the most of it. I dont have much solid in relationships I can rely on either just glimmerings. SH and SI are responses to despair. Find ways to shake it off. Others may come and go people have many of their own needs. Nobody deserves self harm. Gently bently

@Oaktree your walks and posts are inspiring. I know not all life is easy for you and am interested how you found your path to so many good strategies and ways of being.

Hi @Appleblossom I don't have real friends

I have some fake ones who just ignore me in crises

My friend said she was too busy to help when I was holed up in hopsital for 3 weeks

She said she only has time for work and family

She went to Bali the next week

She was my emergency contwct. She was needed to advocate for me.

And it hurts a lot.

Other friends help more but some.are very weird about mh and don't reply or respond for weeks while on holiday and don't seem to get like that one was my one contact who had offered to contact hospital for me but it felt like she did it begrudgingly whole others are pro active and supportive