Trying makes it worse

Hello @EternalFlower Writing letters you'll never send. I like the way you put that. A box of living moving thoughts that are unburdened from your mind and put on train predestined to derail.

That pulsating box of claws n teeth is out of your head and thats what maters. Comes back again. . .

Send it again. The value of pen on paper. Thats why I like a journal.

Perfect and imperfect. each day you gather words and tools and learn to live in this place we call life.

Proud of you mate. Hand in hand tonys.

Hello @EternalFlower

Breaking down boxes is one way of releasing some tension...

saying goodbye to what has been and hello to what is here now..

New beginnings for you...

I know that you will find a way to bring you into your new home.

Loss of appetite is challenging ...I know this...I am prone to nausea and loss of appetite when things are upsetting.

You are doing the right thing...eating what you can stomach ..

Gentle foods for your stomach at first and watermelon is hydrating also..

Do you drink water regularly? The good old H2 O is most important...you might feel lightheaded..

Good to hear that you know how to reach out when you need to....

Take your time and look after yourself...

Hopefully an optimistic, understanding support worker will be there before you know it.

Take care friend

Sophia

@tonys

Picking up the pieces

Scattered across the floor

Combination Of memories

Actions

Words and

Wounds

Little steps

Retreats

Choices

Chance.

I remember:

I was not sure who i could trust

You told me

There would be a time

When it would all make sense

I chose

I lost.

I get that each day is anew

But something is missing

Something has flown.

Thanks @Sophia1 lovely to see Ur post

Somehow the appetite comes back, and certain foods taste ok.

I drink chocolate milk sometimes or coffee

I eat mangoes.

And little cups of oranges and apples from woollies.

I have some good support. A friend contacted a mh worker they know who us seeing me tomorrow

It is bizarre but in desperation it really is whoever can get u in first

But then I will choose which I like. I just need space now.

I am meeting a mh practitioner called Sue tomorrow and hoping it is ok.

You wrote that for me @EternalFlower Privileged, I dine at your table, toast with our precious tears,

scribe words of pain with quills inked in blood. But still we meet. Still you fight. Your heart beats beyond restraint. Splash your words across the canvass where I can only marvel at the authenticity of your art.

I tell you no lies my friend. The embryonic phase will hurt and then some.

But still we meet. . . Still you fight. . . Your heart beats enemies into submission.

Parts of you leave, carried by the doves of despair But new born doves of hope will return at dawn.

Build there nest in you.

And tomorrow we shall meet again, you will fight. . and foes will tremble at the sound of a heart greater than mine.

Now's the time for sleep. Wake to and welcome the doves, my dear friend @EternalFlower

tonys

How are u @tonys @Owlunar2 @Appleblossom

I'm . . . Linear, thankyou for asking. @EternalFlower More importantly, how are you, Was wondering, but did not want to jynx you, No news is sometimes good news, you know how it is.

I have a poorly lit specialty store on 26 n 7 avenue, trades in misinterpreted signals, mixed messages, and foreign language marriage counselling, currently in receivership.. Boldly put. I'm a blind man feeling for expression in faces missing autistic brail.

I could just as easily poke your eye out, than help. Its my condition. But , here we are, you, and me..

So. What has the week done, to you, for you, or with you, my fine bed of floral spender.

My friend 2 doors down from me passed away last night. So best I tell you Ive snuck a sip to cheat the emotional tax collectors from there prize. I'll pay them in full tomorrow.. with interest. !

I just pray that your sails have found favour with the trade winds.. tonys..

Oh lovely @tonys I'm so sorry to read that

I am sure there are no words for such a loss, I send u support. Appreciate you thinking of me

I am okay, I had a few friends drop off meals for me and ate normal food for the first time tonight. Haven't cooked for months and no interest so has left me eating m and ms or carrot sticks and coffee.

Have been ok, busy jusr from one day to the next, meeting new ndis workers. I have fired one and my other one disappeared.

Now I have a coordinator who finds them. They take me to appoitnemtns and around.

Hope u are OK tonight and hang in there, loss and grief is a devastator

Thankyou so much @EternalFlower , I'm ok. Just a little tilted. Its that, unforeseen word again.

Dealing with the raw honesty of it, seated in my self confessional, what's the message. Well thats just my vanity. Picture doesn't belong to anyone but her, and hers. She had a meeting with a place and time and that's the truth of it. Music stops, your left with no chair. Its just life..

Still, the way those old hands played her cards. Wondered why she was missing from the table. Why they kept it from me. She''ll always be at my card table.

Going to have one more toast before Rn catches me.. Tomorrow can pull its weight for once and look after itself... Good night @EternalFlower @ everyone

Aaah @tonys Sorry about the guy 2 doors down .... so glad to see you sailing the high winds... even when flat on your back in a hospital bed. Keeping hopeful you will get back on dry land soon, and back to your bookkeeper. It has been so good to know you. I will smile when I remember you.

@EternalFlower I am not too bad. Glad you have friends who help. Lucky even. There are interests and needs, and we all need to figure out our priorities. I did not like cooking but adapted easy meals from restaurants I had worked in. Lollies were not a thing when I grew up and I did not want to ruin my kids teeth so kept a limit on it as a mother. Glad my kids value real food. Food and nutrition is a non negotiable. There is a lot of choice and information on the internet as to how you make it personal, re needs and taste good for you. Good luck with it all.