Trying makes it worse

Thanks @TAB @Meowmy @tyme @StuF @tonys for holding on

Hope is hard for sure

@EternalFlower hey EF, totally understand. There are so many days, so many times. But we got through. Hope it gets better. Take care

@tonys not journalling to much but got a good book going and some TV

How are you doing

Thanks @TAB a pastie sounds good!!

I've been eating a mango every day or some berries as it's all I have stomach for

And ice coffee

I felt a bit better earlier and held it tightly

I know deep down everything that occurred is for the good

I had a spat with someone and it ended the relationship but such is life

It is ok

I had a shower and washed my hair and intend to try a hot drink

I also see that life can't exist without pain and it means we are Alive

@tonys @Appleblossom @TAB @tyme

ah, pretty sure if you can keep some food down you would feel better @EternalFlower

I used to have a friend who would get taken away by CATTs etc sometimes they wouldnt eat for weeks. they could always get a pastie down and/or a creme brulee thing in tub from supermarket lol. a few days later after a lot of sleep they would be half human again lol

well. . @EternalFlower I'm going OK and thankyou for thinking of me. . just stirred from a dream

Its the small hours hey. Between today and tomorrow. When every choice just seems like a wrong turn dead end street. thats the time I think about things folks write on here. Its our day to day struggles that connect us all. Then we each wake up again and its a new day. The sins and sorrows of yesterday, washed away for a moment by our dreams. In that moment we try and close the door on those ghosts just a little more and make our way to the gifts of a new day. The ones worth having never just come to me. I gotta reach for every one. I feel your strength Flowers.

you can make this.

tonys..

Sunny side up, thanks @tyme Hope your dancing in your mind too. tonys

Thank u all

Bad experiences reaching out to hotline today which usually help

The man told me i must have been in psychosis when i self harmed

I said my dr said I wasn't ubwrll as I don't have psychosis or bipolar

Man said "Ur dr doesn't understand psychosis then. From what Ur telling me it sounds like psychosis "

I said psychosis is a medical condition and j don't have it and self harming doesn't mean you are experiencing psychosis

I found the man very arrogant to think he was an expert and my dr was wrong and I must have been psychotic when I kept saying I don't have it

Scary

I should probably complain as this person sounds unsafe @TAB @TAB @Meowmy @tonys

..maybe eat some food @EternalFlower

So the 2nd person said dr who you complained about was wrong.

Now 2nd person is wrong as well?

if everyone is wrong how can you still ask for help?

Not sure how psychosis works, but would a psychotic know if they were psychotic ?

as dr said to me the other day , you put yourself in drs care, then you pick and choose what advice you will follow.

I felt silly.

he made me shake hands on 'deal' to do what he asked me to do..

jarst sayin .. go get the pastie and iced coffee as well maybe . if you cant finish them, put in fridge and have later.