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Trying makes it worse

Trying makes it worse

Hi,

I'm EternalFlower and I've been feeling completely overwhelmed, sad, and pessimistic.

I've tried and been a responsible patient and person, reaching out to various services when I started feeling scarily anxious and suicidal, 2 years back..

My Dr is new, a young guy who regularly admits he's inexperienced, and aside from some good jokes, he actually does very little

I notice how easy it is to blame myself that I don't feel better, a total shame spiral, but I wander if my treatments just are bad....

I wanted to chat and hear anyone and hope I can use this space to help not feel so alone.

Thanks xxx EternalFlower

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Re: Trying makes it worse

Thankyou @Appleblossom

I appreciate your support & feel so understood!🙂 It certainly makes a difference to my own Mental health during this stressful period.

Sending support to you and your son too 💗💗

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Morning @EternalFlower @Appleblossom @maddison, I hope your Wednesday's bring some sunshine and a bit of peace and inner calm 💚

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Thanks so much @Former-Member

how are u doing @Appleblossom @maddison

Wednesday blessing and support to everyone

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Hi @maddison @tyme @Former-Member @Appleblossom

I was very anxious today, extremely awful anxiety

I think I left my wallet at the Cafe I went to, which is not great, but honestly so stressed that just hoping for tomorrow to come.

I get upset over everything when like this, I lose things, I feel shakey.

The cm has taken a lot of energy

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Re: Trying makes it worse

Hey @EternalFlower

How are you going today?

Thank U for message. I'm sorry you are feeling anxious and shaky.

I am getting ready to go to appointment with housemate to see psych & hopefully discuss cm change! He won't let me in appt. Room! That is ok. I will be in waiting room.

I will message you later when I have more time.

Anxiety is not good. I tend to lay on my bed & let it wash over me.

💗

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@EternalFlower

Sorry you are shakey. If you still cant find your wallet, maybe it is worth going back to that cafe when you feel up to it and ask?

I have lost a lot of things in a similar way. I hope it shows up, but if not, going back and asking might be a helpful thing, especially if you get it back and do not have to do all your cards again. Sometimes we can get a little sense of relief when people do the right thing.

Take Care

Gently Bently

Apple

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Hi @maddison hope it went OK today...

Hey @Appleblossom I called and they had it 🙂

I picked it up this morning. I felt extremely stressed but no reason. I messaged the Cafe on social media last night and they said they would check first thing tomorrow morning

,that stressed me out as obviously no one had handed it in yet....

Actually not the case, someone had, just that it was a different staff member checking social media!

So all OK

How are u @Appleblossom

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Hi all @Appleblossom @Former-Member

I've been offered to work with a peer worker alongside the cm, and I'm so happy

Less involvement with casemanager

More contact with someone who understands me and is caring,

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@EternalFlower

Great news on both counts.

Life is funny like that.

Good luck with your peer wkr, it sounds like it might help "educate" that cw.

I am alright. Hanging in there. Did an online seminar and dinner is done.

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Hi @EternalFlower

Very good news you were able to get your wallet back. Yay! Im glad you are happy to also be working with a peer worker. This sounds like great solution. 💗 Well done 👍

Today was a big day here & little tiring. I can hardly believe, although not surprised that friends case worker was absent again today. No update yet either, as to if he can change cw.

I feel better now knowing, his psychiatrist was able to meet with him & is updated on situation. It had been stressful on my own.

It feels like delicate situation. I do think (hope) he is becoming more stable now. I'm wondering if he was perhaps able to get some of the built up distress out of his system in the last week & now can look forward more clearly? I am here for him either way. I don't how!?♥️Taking it slow.

💗👍💗👍👛

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