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Trying makes it worse

Trying makes it worse

Hi,

I'm EternalFlower and I've been feeling completely overwhelmed, sad, and pessimistic.

I've tried and been a responsible patient and person, reaching out to various services when I started feeling scarily anxious and suicidal, 2 years back..

My Dr is new, a young guy who regularly admits he's inexperienced, and aside from some good jokes, he actually does very little

I notice how easy it is to blame myself that I don't feel better, a total shame spiral, but I wander if my treatments just are bad....

I wanted to chat and hear anyone and hope I can use this space to help not feel so alone.

Thanks xxx EternalFlower

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Re: Trying makes it worse

Hello @tonys @Meowmy @Shaz51 @Appleblossom @tyme

And everyone

I did take the bed @tonys was here monday to today

Left this morning

I asked to leave

They brought the dr to see me, who wss told "she is begg

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Hoping you can get more apt support through your NDIS plan .

Hospitals can be very limited. Yes all very professional and expensive, but maybe not really what you need.

@EternalFlower

It has taken me a long time to figure out NDIS. My support co-ordinator said my plan usage is unusual, in that I no longer use, cleaners, gardeners, and support workers. They all made me feel worse about myself. The key aspect ... to keep in mind ... is YOUR CHOICE and CONTROL. The problem, can be working out what are the best choices ... for YOU. Keep hanging in there. Thats alright. We can try different things and see what fits best.

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Hello @Meowmy @Shaz51 @tonys @Appleblossom @tyme @Bunniekins @TAB @Owlunar

I am home now out of hospital

Discharge was quite hard and distressing

I bought my car to the hopsital which they were upset about (didnt park onsite) so just drove it home

Hospital was nice, lots of fun stuff, but my sleep was really disturbed and i decided to come home after a few days.

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Hope it was some use for you @EternalFlower ? I tend to sleep a lot in hospital I think. I do like routine though like meal times and cups of tea etc 😊

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@EternalFlower hey Eternalflower, hope you feel better at home. Take care

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What kind of fun stuff did they do? @EternalFlower

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Hello @TAB @Appleblossom @tonys know u mentioned they were taking ur computer? Hope ur doing strong in ur recovery.

We did art and crochet, music, some games with residents like scrabble?

The tea is always nice. I had some intense naps , lots of nightmares in hospital ....the checks at night are scary even if i try tell myself all is ok.

I had my phone and wi fi was okay mostly and the patients were nice. There were a lot of young people seemed like 20 and they were all a big group.

It was a good distraction and quite interesting but my knee is recovering and the hospital bed ibflamed it...i could feel it ouch so i decided i needed to be in my own bed.

It is better. I didnt want to make the injury worse.

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Good Morning @EternalFlower I hope you are okay now

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oooh @EternalFlower I may have missed it. How did you injure your knee?

Good that you saw a lot of people and did good things. Kind of normalises mental health issues in a way ... if only it was that way in the big wide world ... weary sigh!

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Hi @Appleblossom thanks for caring

I didnt mention here, i wanted to pretend it wasnt happening but i can barely walk with severe pain in both knees.

I didnt have somewhere to sleep a while back and was sleeping on my couch and my knees hurt vut i kept doing it.

I went to a few gps abd was told they look fine and then went to physio who saw it was completely swollen, occlusions she said or something and i need to ice them.

It is really painful and i struggle to get up and down.

The hospital bed inflamed it and i didnt want to restart the cycle.

In hospital they added voltaren and said i also need a b12 shot every second day unrelated. It is hard to stay healthy on my own with all this going on.

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