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Trying makes it worse

Trying makes it worse

Hi,

I'm EternalFlower and I've been feeling completely overwhelmed, sad, and pessimistic.

I've tried and been a responsible patient and person, reaching out to various services when I started feeling scarily anxious and suicidal, 2 years back..

My Dr is new, a young guy who regularly admits he's inexperienced, and aside from some good jokes, he actually does very little

I notice how easy it is to blame myself that I don't feel better, a total shame spiral, but I wander if my treatments just are bad....

I wanted to chat and hear anyone and hope I can use this space to help not feel so alone.

Thanks xxx EternalFlower

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Hi @tonys

Shame to hear you've bailed on the music thread. It Is hard to keep up!!!

I hope you have a good day today!

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@tonys

Your book keeper friend sounds special, which makes me so glad you have each other in your lives

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@tonys

Also, had to say: "glows me a smile" is an awesome turn of phrase!

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Hey @StuF and @TAB Guess I have bailed on music thread. I pop in now and then.

Still got music in my life. Thats wot counts. lol

@tonys I am glad your old timbers can get shivered... and you are still seaworthy.

@EternalFlower I daresay I pulled a face when a poor excuse was made for the absence of the pdoc at our recent CTO hearing. Hearing you about long term neglect. Hang in there with NDIS and hope you get decent support to keep you afloat ... swimming swimming ... my fave colour is green too, so many variations. I work with that in my garden.

Fare thee well ... me hearties ....

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@Appleblossom yes I sort of notice re music thread but yeah

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Yes @Appleblossom having music in your life Is what counts 🙂

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Glad you liked that one @StuF . Coming from you thats a big compliment. I have seen what you can do

with a pen. You've got skills that you don't let of the humble leash often, but when you do its quite

spectacular.. I hope your days been good Stuff. You know how busy hospital gets. First chance Ive had to rip a letter open. Be back later mate. Take care tonys

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Thank You @tonys

I likewise regard that as a big compliment 🙂

Day was good enough thanks. I hope yours has been too 🙂

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Hi @Appleblossom I hear you on music. My old guitars have been dragged from pillar to post and I even have my little Hohner in my pocket for good luck though I'm not game or able to play it in here yet. One reed died about 6 years ago and they are not replaceable on mine. Wouldnt last a day without music. The internet is new to me. I'm addicted to You tube music.

Found myself getting on the music thread later and later each night with work piling up on the farm.

Its one thread I didn't feel right doing semi focused and tired. It taught me how to post songs and led me down many roads I'm still exploring. I will always be grateful to the music thread. Its on my... RE

to do list.. Yes I'm very lucky re book keeper. Don't fully understand it. The twilight zone has some unusual dwellers. If your on your way out for the eve, I'll keep one eye one the news. . Take care

Appleblossom.

Hi @EternalFlower Green wall paper skies for me too mate. Its a gentle soft natured colour, a part of our DNA perhaps. But pressed to the ultimate choice, I'll take a rainbow sandwich in neat triangles,

on a blanket by the brook.

Your struggles are such some days that I near cry for you. I think Apples probly got the best experience from what I read. Those shoes have got some mileage. All I can say is from a distance I think you often sound a little stronger than you did when I first met you, but I still worry a lot. You have solid friends here and I see newcomers have made it feel a bit more like home here.

I still would love to change it to trying make it 'better' one day... @Thyme ... ?

Ok just kidding.

@TAB What mischief have you been up to buddy. I'll have to go for scrounge. Would spent uranium fuel heat your place. How is the home. Take care mate I'll find you later

Hope everyone is warm and safe. Take care everyone tonys.

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early nite here @tonys going to big smoke tomorrow to get slate hearth for heater. got call at last minute flue kit has turned up on other side of town, but am already committed and everyone shuts at 12 sat. Quarry only open for sales friday and sat am. So its a jumble, I tried to streamline it, then gave up. so another long drive monday oh well.

Take care

I sent someone a twilight zone ep other day ? cant remember to who or why ..

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