Trying makes it worse

hey there @LeChuck . How are you mate. In hospital, Cant feel good but we let go and its where the currents take us some times. Mate. I have a confession to make.

Half the time I don't even know what thread I'm in. See a kite come in the mail box and it takes me to Sane Fms and then so busy reading and thinking, I forget to look where I'm at.

I seem to like the " grate full' thread lately, because its like the song. . .

Shining Happy People holding hands. But then music thread cheers me up too. And then I get the odd home work assignment handed to me. Love those. Had the odd tiger stalk me,

so change lanes from time to time, . . . writing is sharing , and venting.

But I will go where ever you go fella. Your scarcity hides how smart and methodical you work a problem, and It more than peaks my interest. I think there is a deep and wise person in there that i would like to know more about. Helps me learn too.

So, Lately the farm means late hours for me, or rainy days. but i do look in as many doors as I can when the crickets are singing, Will tag you more if O k.

So, what ever you want to talk about, and where ever, a tag will wormhole me to your galaxy..

Thinking of you Le chuck. tonys m b 1

Thanks @tonys . Would love a tag now and then, just don't want to chat on our support thread for eternal, theyve got enough on their plate without us yakking away about bill dust haha

OK . will keep that on stiky note on fridge. What threads do you mostly frequent.

tonys.

None at the moment. Struggle town resident here. Maybe I should make my own. Anywhere will do, just a random tag or two to keep me distracted 🙂

Happy to listen @LeChuck sometimes its really unfair to have a rough time. Im glad u can voice it and hope ur ok

Hello all hello dear @LeChuck and my friend @Appleblossom @watcher and kind @tonys @Sophia1 @Shaz51

Today was a bit tispy turvy messy and hard.

People do not know i discharged myself from hosptial because it wasnr helping, and are congratulating me on thw great news of being out. I cant express myself properly and cant speak about what its like therr because i assume people find it boring so it leaves me feeling isolated in this world of wards.

I am having trouble with my Dr who i feel messed everything up regarding my stay but remained blissfully ignorant of his role in this.

I hope everyone is ok and im here for u if u need

hey there eternal @EternalFlower First chance ive had to log in. First thing, You are my

mate. So you could rob the federal reserve bank . . !, wouldn't change a thing. You'll always be my. . MATE . . . Second.. You are certainly never boring my friend. I always like to hear what ever you have to say. When I worry is when you say nothing.

You never have to tell friends stuff to impress them or feel pressure to please us, and sorry if you feel that pressure . Ive been with you a while through ups and downs,.. of course we like hearing about the wins. but this is about listening to what ever, . . when ever. Even on your worst days you are always kind. If I had just one hour to live, I would quite happily put my feet up, pop a cork, and share it with you my friend.

Tell you a secret. Often I will just leave a note for the book keeper, pack my bed roll, and thumb a lift to god knows where, And then just float back in when Ive made up an answer I believe in enough or the bats have all gone.

We do what we must my very dear friend.

Tonys moon base one

Roger that @LeChuck , If you start one, send me a kite so I find you please.

Rest up friend. tonys m b I

@EternalFlower I am having a lot of trouble talking and organising my thoughts too. I finally built up the courage to explain that to my loved ones and friends and ask if we can talk via text instead. I just said to them on the phone, I'm sorry but I'm having a lot of trouble talking and organising my thoughts, is it ok if we text instead? And everyone has been supportive of it. I find it a lot easier to say I'm struggling but ok and explain things through words on a screen than I do face to face or on the phone. I can't explain things properly or do faces right fast enough at the moment for phone calls and face to face. I can hardly speak on the phone and it just makes me feel shit, so. Being able to reach out through a text and talk that way is helping with the isolation in here. I don't know if that is an option for you but it's working for me. I am making an effort to keep my texts short and to the point and not overwhelm anyone but it's great for people to even understand a little and keep that social connection going.

Sorry that things are still so tough. Sending good vibes eternal!

@EternalFlower as to the boring thing, people won't find your struggles boring, certainly not here atleast. But you don't have to tell them everything, just enough for them to understand a little. You can say the hospital was a really horrible place and I discharged myself because it was making me worse, that you're still struggling but trying to hang in there and leave it at that. It's easy for me to write a bl**dy novel about how things have been and how I'm feeling, but I try to keep it short and sweet, not to stop myself from boring people, just so I don't overwhelm them and tell them more than they can handle. You have to be patient with the people in your life and yourself sometimes and let them in a little bit at a time.

PS eternal I'm sorry if I'm annoying you or overwhelming you with writing style and my own experiences. You need to do things in your own way and on your own timeline. I'm just hoping you can find some tips and tricks in my experiences and help if I can