Trying makes it worse

@EternalFlower hello mate. I hope you made a little progress today. Just letting you know I'm here and thinking about you.

Wishing you peace. tonys m b 1

Thanks @tonys appreciate you.

Feeling bit better although day was somewhat of a blur. Dr called me just now and said he'll try tomorrow if he gets a chance between appointments.

He has recommended a medication but I said it's too expensive as not on PBS. I asked him if he had samples. He said he doesn't meet with drug reps and therefore no samples. Ok then 😊

I am scared because I can't just not sleep but I can't rest. It is not a good thought to imagine this going on and feeling so on edge and tired. I wish sleep came easy and wasn't an enemy or a goal but just an easy home I could walk into.

Thank you for watching and caring for helping for listeningand makijg it ok to be scared as main part is being safe

That sounds so hard @EternalFlower you describe the feeling so well. I'm sorry sleep is torturing you right now. I hope you get some rest soon and glad your doc is on it.

Just wanted to pop by and offer some support. I wish there was more I could do.

I hope you get some rest 💝

Thank you @Paperdaisy

I appreciate that.

hello @EternalFlower Thankyou mate, Being thoughtful is not easy, but still some how you manage it. So, I'm glad to hear you are seeing the doctor. If I was there I would make an appointment for you every day. Remember, . . you can always cancel an appointment if you think you are managing, but to make one at the last minut in your current state. Its risky. I would relax if I knew you were in constant contact with professionals and friends.

ARE YOU EATING PROPERLY. Attention to diet is easily forgotten when you are not coping . The last thing you want to do sometimes is drag everything out and cook and wash up.

My go too, is, . . the monster brew. Every vegie you can think of and a big chook. and kelp powder in it for minerals and your thyroid. lots of peas and mixed tinned beans for iron and fibre. I cover my big boiler with tin foil so it simmers away with almost no gas. Then Gas off, and cover with towels and it will still cook for another 3 hours. I can get 10 good meals out off one chook. And sardines and tinned mackerel or kippers gives you the omega 3 for your brain and stress. Mate if I was there I would mother you to death. You would have to get well, just

to get away from my nagging.

Sleep is a tough one, I have my tv on SBS chill station, but having a voice in the background

like bbc news on the radio used to work for me too. These days, I even have fallen asleep logged into sane forums, a few times, Its embarrassing.

Well I just want the best for you. I hope the chiefs at sane are giving you helpful stuff. I know they are worried and care deeply about you.

You deserve to have a happy life, I better add here that I have level 2 autism, and have never had depression or anything like what you have so my thinking and ideas are one friend to another. just hope you are in the embrace of professionals as soon as possible.

You are a genuine person in great need.

Will call in again tomorrow after work. your friend tonys moonbase 1

@EternalFlower Hello eternal flower. I do hope today gave you a little peace and comfort.

And I hope my chicken recipe, didnt lift the roof of your kitchen.

Mate . . . I'm just letting you know, not a day goes by that I don't think of you.

Please take care and reach out. I'm just outside the door if you need to share.

tonys moon base one.

Hi @tonys thank you

I feel quite lonely these past few days and want to accept the kindness and good vibes sent in your post.

It's been a topsy turvy time.

I keep failing and feel low in energy and low in resources ....

Today I went out in the sun with a peer worker and I really enjoyed it. Hours chatting.

I still feel like my heart is so blocked ...my eyes always one open, waiting for attack

My dr did not call today, he had said he would try between appointments . I got a call about midday from an unknown number which he usually calls from and answered by the line broke.

"Hello...hello?"

I do not know if it was him. I am trying to feel the care and trust it. People go away but return. It's an optical illusion. They are still remaining watching and hoping and helping when they're not there.

I bought so much fresh fruit and vegetables today and ma surrounded by fruit now. It is a feeling of scarcity at times like what if I have no energy and will rot alone in my apartment and have no supplies.

I live in a beaten up place and it's a little bit uninviting and harsh. It doesn't feel safe at times. It is hard to be alone in my head in this place. Hurts.

Hope sleep is your friend tonight and you have a peaceful one

Hi there...

Ive just picked up a new medication to help with sleep and am hoping it is helpful.

Pricey one 😜

I have had trouble sleeping the past few weeks my body is so angry and oppositional to rest to relaxation and to letting go.

Hoping this helps as I really need some relief and rest

Hello,

I've had a rough few weeks.

I have been feeling palmed off by my therapist and case manager, they send me to each other...so in the end I get no help.

My therapist says I need to stick around in the hospital system to wait for them to do a spectrum referral and so that I can access NDIS. It's all so annoying as I feel the hospital system doesn't help and makes me worse. I want out

@tonys @tyme @amber22 @Appleblossom @LeChuck

I've been having poor sleep... cleaning my house bit by bit looks OK now ...made a little bookshelf and a few new decorative corners.

I have at times felt so impulsive like I want to hurt myself but I know deep down it will not improve my situation.

I can't see a better way out, though.( I am safe.)

I'm really sorry to hear that @EternalFlower , I'm in hospital at the moment too. I'm sorry I've been a bit absent on the forums, I really hope things start toget better for both of us!