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Trying makes it worse

Trying makes it worse

Hi,

I'm EternalFlower and I've been feeling completely overwhelmed, sad, and pessimistic.

I've tried and been a responsible patient and person, reaching out to various services when I started feeling scarily anxious and suicidal, 2 years back..

My Dr is new, a young guy who regularly admits he's inexperienced, and aside from some good jokes, he actually does very little

I notice how easy it is to blame myself that I don't feel better, a total shame spiral, but I wander if my treatments just are bad....

I wanted to chat and hear anyone and hope I can use this space to help not feel so alone.

Thanks xxx EternalFlower

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Hi, I'm new to this website. I was tortured and abused by the mental health services in my local area for well over 14 years when all I needed was a good, caring therapist. I met one about 3 years ago and she helped me work out what my real problems were, that the psychiatric service was abusing me, and that I could get free of them. [edited by moderator] I am not an expert in anything but see if you can find a good therapist, counselor or psychologist, medication can help by psychiatrists are not properly trained to deal with emotional issues.

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hello @EternalFlower . just to take steps at all, its very brave. Your world has elevated gravity.

everything weighs twice as much. Peaks distorted twice as high. Tomorrow is a day when knocking on doors becomes banging on them to get the help you are entitled to. Letters with your feelings signed, dated, hand delivered. Copy one of three on the top of each one. Please don't hold back. I cant know your full situation, I'm no bush lawyer, and it may be as well I'm not there. It's just that I'm very worried mate. Please keep those friends as close as possible, hide nothing of your pain, and please , if you can stay in touch.

I will look In through the day tomorrow. tonys moonbase 1

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Hey @justanotherguy ,

Thanks for sharing. I'm sorry you have had a tough run with the system.

I can relate to having some not-so-helping therapists, but I can also relate to having therapists who really cared. To be honest, that's why I'm still here.

With many years of despair, I never thought I'd be alive today. However, against the odds, I'm here - here to tell my story of victory, triumph and satisfaction.

I really cannot ask for more in my life right now. While some wouldn't cringe if I told them my MH journey, I don't regret it one bit. It has made me a much more compassionate person, and much more understanding of MH.

All the best, @justanotherguy !

tyme

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Are you okay @EternalFlower ?

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Hi @tyme I am trying but I feel really down

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Re: Trying makes it worse

I read that you feel down @EternalFlower , and feeling that way is valid. I really appreciate your honesty in this, and hope that we can clarify things soon for you.

In the meantime, are you able to find something to either distract yourself or help you wind down for the evening?

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hello again @EternalFlower Just looking in to see your ok and let you know I'm thinking about you. I can see you have others looking in to. sleep peacefully and tomorrow, like you said, small steps.

Watching over you. tonys moonbase 1

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Hi @tonys got your letter loud and clesr and very much in good time

The dr suggested some natural over the counter meds, which are calming. They don't help me sleep much but I'm fairly peaceful so I guess that's something. Said he'd call me tomorrow. Didn't even realise til I wrote it that the depth of pain is temporary as you said tomorrow we get back to sailing and moving and insisting and keeping on....following one foot after another and keeping hope

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@EternalFlower I am still up and I am checking in on you again before bed. I am ... nervously pleased that you sound a bit better, but I'm a bit of a mother and wont relax till I hear you are under some quality love and care.

You honour me by sharing your day to day journey. A quality person, I can tell, and I shall be here as long as you wish or need

sleep my friend, and i will keep a watch.. tonys moon base 1

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