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My dear @HenryX

I love your books so never you mind about writing them. I also like to listen to ABC radio, I guess that comes from living in the country when I was a teenager. You don't get many stations out there. I used to very much enjoy listening to Verity James and always found her programs most interesting. I know what you mean about the weight issue being cyclical. I have extra weight also but am not motivated to get rid of it. I might be happier if I was a bit healthier and fitter. The medications don't help at all. You never mentioned if you got around to fixing your bicycle. It will be great for you to get around on your deadly treadly. I went on a bike for the first time in about 20 years the other day. It was a nerve wracking experience but I managed not to fall off. I am not sure that I am in a hurry to repeat the experience though. What else did you talk about? Oh yeah the psych... I was disappointed that my appointment got canceled which really surprised me and threw me for a bit of a loop. I hope my psychologist is ok as it was because they were sick which I am sure was out of their control. Just hoping that they are well for our next appointment. You sound like me, doing the best you can with your homework. Maybe like me you are a perfectionist. How are you getting on with the work of de cluttering your house? I really should try and get on top of my housework. My house is getting a bit out of control. I am glad things are progressing with your counseling. It is often hard and emotional work but there should be a worthwhile outcome at the end of all the work. I asked my psych how long until we actually fully get started with the imagery rescripting and she said around 4 weeks time. I am a bit freaked out and still very unsure about the whole thing. Trying to be brave but it is a daunting prospect. I just realised how long this note is getting and am starting to worry about getting the dreaded error message so I will leave it here.

Meggle

Hello @Oaktree

The radio, where I am living in the “outback” is limited to ABC and a couple of other stations. I prefer to listen to the various programs on the ABC when there are items to which I can relate. Normally interviews or documentary type programs. I find it to be a good way of unwinding. But sometimes the topic hits close to touchy psychological nerves.

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This morning I am up a bit later. Went to bed fairly late last night. My arm became slightly painful on the way home yesterday and has continued to be so through this morning. As with the 1st vax., feeling as though I'd been punched in the arm. So I took a couple of tablets and stayed in bed a while longer.

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Though I did respond to some messages before going back to lie down again.

I evidently did not send the message the other evening, as I had intended. I know that it is best to go to bed soon after taking the tablets to which I referred. They knock out my balance, both physically and mentally.

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The bike tyre!! I still haven't got to doing it. I have a couple of other bikes that are not in as good condition. I will probably just swap the whole wheel if one of the other two rear wheels is serviceable. Then I can repair the current one later??? As I mentioned, it really is important to get one operational. I did get on a bike a couple of years ago. I actually did fall over. Nothing serious, a bit of grazing, but even though I have ridden since, I may still be a bit wary.

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It's possible that the cancelling of that psych. app't was a good thing that may have given you the awareness that you might be better prepared than you thought to progress with the process. Likewise, hope that the illness is not serious and the psych will be back on deck quickly.

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House decluttering is really a slow process that is also affected by pain and difficulty moving. Dimity, Last-Lament and I are pacing and encouraging each other on “The magic of tidying” thread, so there is a bit more detail on there. The state of my house is the direct opposite of what I would like it to be, and the way that I have been in the past. I really like everything to be clean and orderly. The way it is at the moment is really a statement about the collective issues that I am facing, rather than simply a question of tidiness and cleanliness.

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Your psych. seems to be moving at a pace that she thinks that you are able to deal with. I am pleased that you generally feel the engagement with her is worthwhile for you. I have described the approach that I use, which is not to worry, in advance, about what is likely or possible to come up in future discussions. It is enough to deal with what actually is being dealt with without overlapping what you deal with in each session with what you think might come up in the next.

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Your comment about the “dreaded error message” is the reason that I write all but the shortest of messages in a word processor {such as "Microsoft Word" or I use "ApacheOpenOffice writer" which is free and as good as any other, I have found}, and get all the layout, spell checking, colours, word count, and other details the way that I want them. Then I 'copy and paste' into a freshly opened 'Reply' box and do a final proof-read and tidy-up, then post. That way I totally avoid the error message.

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Hoping that you have a very good day, Meg

With Best Wishes

@HenryX

Hello @Oaktree

I've been posting a few comments in which I could have tagged you. I'm certainly not ignoring you, but just conscious that I had said, at your request, that I would not tag you on other threads until you let me know otherwise. However, I'm happy either way. I've enjoyed your recent posts, especially, but not only, on the "hangar" thread. Thank you

and

Best Wishes

@HenryX

@HenryX

Just go ahead and tag me. I am enjoying getting to know young Henry. Sounds as though you had some adventures.

Meggle

Hi @Oaktree

Acknowledged re tagging. And pleased that you seem to be much more at ease.

As I guess that you would imagine, I am extremely pleased with the way that the "Hangar" has been received. { i'm dopey - keep spelling it with an "e" instead of an "a". I really should know better, being pretty strict about spelling and language structure. Smack hand!! } Thank you for commenting and responding to my various post. I have also been aware that you have supported, from the background, many of my comments and posts as well. Thank you also for that. You, and others have contributed a good deal to my confidence, over the past few months, for which I am very appreciative.

I can certainly say that my activity on the forum has been very helpful for me in being able to write about and explore various issues. There has been a little turbulence at times, but for the most part, I have enjoyed the interaction with other members. It also pleases me to know that the rocky, turbulent bits have generally resolved quickly and some have resulted in further development of ideas and awareness, certainly for me as, I hope, has also been the case for others. In fact, while it seems much longer, I have only been active on the forum for about nine months.

While I have always considered my writing to be adequate, I have been reluctant to use my writing as a format for presentation of information and also, as you would be aware, particularly in the realms of entertainment, fiction and fantasy. Even writing letters and emails has not been an area in which I have felt comfortable. Therfore, I am rather pleased, while feeling that I was pressed to do so for various reasons and circumstaces, that I have been able to develop and present my writing and expression in a range of forms, styles and aspects in communication here in the forum.

Recent discussions with the counsellor have also shed light on issues that I had not been consciously aware of. Some of that has been included in my posts on this and other threads. I am beginning to respond positively to some of the material that the counsellor has offered to me that relate to issues in my childhood, teenage years and also later times in my life. Obviously the later times are, necessarily, heavily influenced by early experiences, positive and negative conditioning.

But progress is being made.

Well, @Oaktree for now, I wish you and your family well and

Thank you for your interaction and correspondence with me

over recent months, during our shared participation in forum activity,

With Best Wishes

@HenryX

Hello @Oaktree

Just wanted to leave you a note to see how you are going. I hope that you and your family are all well. Remember you talking about helping your daughter with uni assignment. How are her studies going?

Things in my area are plodding along. Cold today, with light rain. Need to go to the post office to pick up mail. I've been a bit slack in that regard.

It seems to me that many of the people who often made significant contributions to conversation on the forum have left or taken "leave". There are still many people I've known, and with whom I have enjoyed corresponding from the time of my return in February 21, who are still here. However, the forum interaction seems to me to be less lively than a few months ago. There is still a fair bit of one and two sentence interaction, but not as much discussion, which I miss.

Best Wishes

@HenryX

Hi @HenryX

sorry to have left you in the lurch.

I have been mentally unwell lately and haven't even logged in to check notifications for at least a week or so. I hope all is well with you.

Missing our conversations also.

Meggle

Hi @Oaktree

No problems and no need for apology. Just wanted to let you know that I hadn't forgotten you and have been thinking of you and your family. All is fine for me, thank you.

Certainly hope that things improve for you and that you are getting the support to help you through.

With My Very Best Wishes

@HenryX

Hi @HenryX

I am as mad as a cut snake today! Gave my case manager a couple of calls but she is not calling me back. I guess she will call tomorrow but until then I will be feeling pretty mad. The situation is not her fault but the Doctors'. I went to the pharmacy to pick up medication they organised for me last week only to find that the Doctor is only allowing them to dispense 10 tablets a week. This is a problem because I take 2 of them per day so the math doesn't work out. Also the inconvenience of having to run to the pharmacy once a week which I explained to the Doctor that I didn't want to do 5 days before she organised this script so I felt like she didn't listen to me. Also the ten tablets cost the same amount as a month's supply and I am not made of money. They are going to say they did it for my safety but my husband has been holding these particular tablets for several years so who exactly aren't they trusting here. It makes me feel like a child and like they don't think I am responsible enough to look after my own medication. I have never taken too many tablets so this is out of order. Makes me feel like stopping my medication entirely and stop even going to my clinic appointments.

Hello @Oaktree

I understand your concern and distress. Like you, I find that the price of prescriptions for small numbers of tablets is strange. I know that with pain relief patches, a similar situation exists, where they have to have a new prescription every month. It is not so much the cost of medication, but going to the doctor that often. Lucky that I have a good working relationship with my doctor and I actually don't mind the regular visits. It also means that I am getting that regular review of health markers. Hope that you can sort out a satisfactory arrangement for your medication.

Hoping, also, that your "cut snake syndrome" is easily mended. Have image, in mind, of a snake with a bandage wrapped around its middle.

I'm being a bad lad also. Went to singing tonight (Tuesday night) went and cooked meal and I'm up late and just took tablets that help me sleep. I was yawning during singing, but now feel wide awake - a worry!!!

A friend passed away recently and funeral is this week. We used to spend a lot of time together, and had some good laughs about our "adventures". While his passing was not unexpected, there are some sensitive feelings to be processed. Fortunately, I will be going with another friend with whom I have a very good relationship, so we will be supportive to and for each other.

Look forward to catching up with you again soon. Maybe have a yarn.

With My Very Best Wishes

@HenryX