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Having a hard time

Fluttershy1Senior Contributor15 Dec 2020, 12:28 pm AEDT

Having a hard time

Hiya,

Things have been really hard of recent I've been in and out of hospital for my physical and mental health, things just seem to be getting harder. Days are getting longer.
I've been getting changes in my support team... Things are becoming new again, more supports because of my SI attempts *Im safe*

My physical health is declining causing me to be in and out of hospital more.

I'm trying to stay strong but it's hard, things keep going upside down when I'm sort of getting better.

I just wish it could be eaiser not harder. I'm over going to and from hospital.

I've been disassociating a lot, finding it really hard to stay present, when I can stay present it isn't for long. I just wish I could be better.

I'm safe 🦋

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Fluttershy1Senior Contributor04 May 2021, 7:37 pm AEST

Re: Having a hard time

@Appleblossom - you take care of yourself aswell💚

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Fluttershy1Senior Contributor04 May 2021, 8:59 pm AEST

Re: Having a hard time

@MDT @Snowie @BPDSurvivor @Shaz51 @BlueBay @Lee82 @outlander @Emelia8 @Eve7 - are any of you around for a chat

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BPDSurvivorSenior Contributor04 May 2021, 9:26 pm AEST

Re: Having a hard time

I'm here.

Just finished a good soak in the bathtub to warm the bones on a cold 14 degree day.

Are you with your teddies?

@Fluttershy1

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Fluttershy1Senior Contributor04 May 2021, 9:27 pm AEST

Re: Having a hard time

Got teddy me having bad day @BPDSurvivor,

Trying to sit with impulsive feelings

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BPDSurvivorSenior Contributor04 May 2021, 9:42 pm AEST

Re: Having a hard time

Have you tried re-directing these impulses to something else? What else could you do?

I'm not sure what your impulsive actions encapsulate (you don't need to tell me), but in the past, I made things harder to get to or less-reachable to help me take my impulses.

This is just an example which I'm metaphorically using. I know I shouldn't eat junk. So to support this, I make sure I don't have chocolate and biscuits at home. If I really wanted to give in to my impulse, I'd have to go to the shops first or order it - but the time I contemplated the effort of getting what I wanted, I didn't bother.

As I said, this is a metaphor of things probably a lot more weighty such as SH etc. but the underlying principle is the same.

BPDSurvivor

@Fluttershy1

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Fluttershy1Senior Contributor04 May 2021, 9:49 pm AEST

Re: Having a hard time

Yeah I get SH impulses @BPDSurvivor,

I make sure I have nothing in reach and I make sure there is nothing around that could hurt me.

I also get shopping impulses, I went shopping today and only brought things I needed which I'm quite proud about!!

im safe. Just having a bad day

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BPDSurvivorSenior Contributor04 May 2021, 9:54 pm AEST