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Having a hard time

Fluttershy1Senior Contributor15 Dec 2020, 12:28 pm AEDT

Having a hard time

Hiya,

Things have been really hard of recent I've been in and out of hospital for my physical and mental health, things just seem to be getting harder. Days are getting longer.
I've been getting changes in my support team... Things are becoming new again, more supports because of my SI attempts *Im safe*

My physical health is declining causing me to be in and out of hospital more.

I'm trying to stay strong but it's hard, things keep going upside down when I'm sort of getting better.

I just wish it could be eaiser not harder. I'm over going to and from hospital.

I've been disassociating a lot, finding it really hard to stay present, when I can stay present it isn't for long. I just wish I could be better.

I'm safe 🦋

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Lilly6Senior Contributor26 June 2021, 1:12 am AEST

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@Fluttershy1 I am glad you are safe, sorry things are so hard for you.

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Fluttershy1Senior Contributor26 June 2021, 10:42 am AEST

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Hi @Lilly6 @Zoe7 @jem80 @Snowie @MDT @Meowmy @Bunniekins @Lee82 @frog @BPDSurvivor @Shaz51 @Judi9877 @outlander -

hope you are all well

Things have been really tough for me lately, it just seems to be getting worse before it gets better. Family issues are still going and only causing more stress and conflict, I'm struggling to keep up with seeing my support team and looking after myself for my mental health, there just has been a lot going on lately.

Ive been isolating myself from everyone just because the stress has been so bad lately, none of my family care and they are just making me feel worse.

ive been feeling like a mistake, failure and worthless lately, I just feel so alone in how I'm feeling. I just wish people could me more supportive to me and help me through. Not just judge me all the time.

im over having to act like everything is okay when it isn't my whole world is crumbling apart and it just doesn't seem to stop.

I really don't know how to feel at the moment I have so much stress going on. I can't even stay present myself. I just keep dissociating and losing track of the time.

I relapsed in SH the other day because I somehow needed to numb all the emotional pain. I'm safe now though and it was all looked after.

I just feel stuck and alone and numb.

im safe

@Former-Member - I am safe but if you are worried or concerned you are more than welcome to reply here or email me. I'm safe

@Peregrinefalcon - am safe just another hard day 🙃

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frogSenior Contributor26 June 2021, 1:02 pm AEST

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Hearing you @Fluttershy1 and sending peace. It sounds very tough right now.

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Fluttershy1Senior Contributor26 June 2021, 1:55 pm AEST

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It's horrible @frog,

I just wanna hide

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BPDSurvivorSenior Contributor27 June 2021, 4:34 pm AEST

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@Fluttershy1 ,

I am travelling in the car at the moment, and I've taken a photo for you.

Even in the darkest moments, the light will soon shine through. Hold tight and wait for it.

BPDSurvivor

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Fluttershy1Senior Contributor27 June 2021, 6:11 pm AEST

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Thanks @BPDSurvivor,

that's so sweet of you ❤️

Im struggling today

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Lilly6Senior Contributor30 June 2021, 4:54 pm AEST

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@Fluttershy1 I know how feeling flat is, I hope you can find some relief soon.

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