Feeling all different ways tonight, family are judging me because I'm trying something I've always wanted to do and they are telling me it's not going to work and all of that, it's breaking me, I don't know what to do, I feel so numb and stuck on the inside, things have been tough with them already and now they are telling me that my dream of doing a candle shop won't be possible....
They have been very judgemental with my MH they are telling me I'm just faking it for attention when I'm not, I just act like everything is okay around them when it isn't, it feels like my whole world is crumbling apart. I'm having crying epidodes before I go to sleep after everyone else has gone to sleep... Family are also telling me that I am faking my abdo pain when I'm not and they are saying it's one thing when it isn't. I just feel incomplete with my family, I'm always being left out, My 9yo half brother gets spoilt rotten and when I ask for one thing mum turns around and is like no I can't afford that but then she turns around and buys my half brother everything. I ask for something little and I still get a no, I get told to use my own money which I do most of the time.
Dad hasn't been in contact with me ever since I've asked him to talk to me more and do things with me and all of that and what he still has done none of it, his wife hates me and probably is telling him not to talk to me and all of that. I have been judged by most of my family telling me I'm fat and all of that
I'm constantly fighting my alters now because my family are saying there fake when they aren't. I'm hearing voices that are negative, I'm getting way to many nightmares. I just feel numb and insecure and not happy within myself, I feel like everyday at the moment is a struggle, always having to put on a brave face until everyone goes to bed.....
im safe
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